Silence. Unspoken. Unstated.
Words. Terms. Expressions.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Music. Journey. Paramore. to misery business.

Music has been part of my life and I think everyone's life too. Yes. I am a certified addict when it comes to music. I dunno... I think same with how other people connect with this language, I feel a part of me was complete once I started listening to songs. You are full of emotions and people of different nations and race connect to a universal language called music. 

Love songs, R&B, Jazz, Rock, Pop, Alternative... name it. Music of different genre but with the same purpose... to express oneself.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Long Kiss Goodbye

"How long before we see each other again?"
What made me think that you were saying it with a nice expression?
I pretend that there's nothing bothering me
I'll listen 'till morning as you make excuses
Because I want us to be connected

I don't even want to see your face along the river anymore
No development will come from this, my cell phone dances
If It's goodbye mail, I want to forget about it
"Hold me tight" but "I want to disappear to somewhere"
Any time that you're talking too much you don't seem to notice
I let you see that "I cry" a little while pretending to be strong
How well did those tears work on you?

Even though "I want to be loved" in my own way
It fills me, but I can't see you
I just have the feeling that I'll never see you again...
I want to tell you that, but I can't find the right words
Maybe it's okay if I lie, but I can't even say "Don't go away"

When our hands come apart
Will you forget someday?
About me?

Not Feeling Well

napakamalas ko nga naman...
dumaan lang ang weekend ko ng walang nagagawa. Tambay sa bahay.

ang malas tlga pag may sakit ka... wala kang magawang bagay kundi humilata, magpahinga, uminom ng gamot at tumahol sa kakaubo. napakasakit pa ng ulo ko dahil sa sipon. 

namiss ko tuloy ang pagbablog. pati pagbati sa mga kaibigan ko dito sa blogsphere.. :)

well, looking forward na maging okei na din ako despite na inuubo pa din.

see you soon my blog site.. for now sign off muna ako.

Friday, June 25, 2010

An advice from a friend

There are no guarantees, that's what makes it exciting and scary at the same time. Think.... poker =D the higher the stakes, the bigger the rush... ergo, the bigger the disappointment din... but if you hit the jackpot, sarap naman ng feeling. That's what you should aim for.

Life (and love) is a gamble. You gotta play it with eyes closed and fingers crossed... and an open heart. Love like you've never been hurt.... because there is no other way of loving anyway... but with your whole heart.

- Ms Gina

Thursday, June 24, 2010

A story of LOVE in 3 perspective

This is not an original post of mine but I wanted to share this reading my fellow office-mate have sent me awhile ago. While I was reading this, I can't help but smile to some points but at the same time sympathize. Try to figure out which are you...  Are you a tree? A leaf? or a wind? I just figured out mine.


People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl who I love a
lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, or good
figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just an ordinary girl.

I liked her. I really liked her.

I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her
fragility. Reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody so
ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that
after we were together, all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid
other's gossip would hurt her. I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be
mine ultimately and I didn't have to give up everything just for her.

The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years.
She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3
years. She was a good actress and me a demanding director. When I kissed
my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled
and said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were
swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to know what caused her to cry.
Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something and
watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them
quarreled. I know that based on her character, she's not the type that
will start off the quarrel. But I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted
at her and ignored her feelings then walked off with my girlfriend. The
next day, she was laughing and joking with me like nothing happened. I
know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day,
I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup.
Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting
together. I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk
of the school.

I didn't show her my heartache, just smiles and best wishes. Once I
reached home, I couldn't breathe. Tears rolled and I broke down. How
many times have I seen her cry for the man who didn't acknowledge her

During graduation, I received a text message from her. It said, "Leaf's
departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask
her to stay ..."


People call me "Leaf".

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as
buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learned a feeling I
never should've learned - jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They
were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him and I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? If he
really loves me, why didn't he make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time,
I began to suspect that this was one sided love. If he didn't like me,
why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a
friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can
never figure out.

You can't expect from a girl like me to ask him. Despite that, I still
wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping
that one day, he will come to love me too. And because of this, I waited
for him.

Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the
dilemma accompanied me for 3 years. At the end of my 3rd year, a junior
pursues me.

He's like the cool and gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a
tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small
footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better

Finally leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled and didn't ask the
leaf to stay.

"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree
didn't ask her to stay..."

People call me "Wind".

Because I like a girl called "Leaf". Because she's so dependent on the
tree so I have to be a gust wind, a wind that will blow her away.

When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with
her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy
in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.

Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain
the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was not there
as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior
scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left.

The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked
over and smiled at her, took out a note and gave it to her. She was
surprised. She looked at me, smiled, and accepts the note.

The day after, she appeared and passes me a note and left. "Leaf's heart
is too heavy and the wind couldn't blow her away".

"It's not that leaf's heart is too heavy. It's simply because leaf never
wants to leave the tree". I replied her note with this statement and
slowly she started to talk to me and accept my presents and phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance
that one day, I will make her like me.

Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If
I'm really decided for her to be mine, I will definitely use all means
to win her over.

I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although
I know she will always try to change the topic, I still bear a small ray
of hope deep within me, that she will agree to be my girlfriend. And so
I asked her again.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you
doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"

"I'm nodding my head", she said.
"Huh?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head", she replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed, took a taxi and rushed to her
place. My hands were trembling when I press the doorbell.
I hugged her tightly as she opened the door.

"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree
didn't ask her to stay..."

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

just a thought

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back .. Some people are just not meant to be in your life no matter how much you want them to be... how cruel.


Tuesday, June 22, 2010

LSS - Terminal -

I just came across the song Terminal sung by Rupert Holmes on my Ipod. I can't even remember when did I put that song on my playlist... hmmm.. going back... it's also a very good timing that I was riding the bus when this song starts playing on my earphones.. and the song goes like this.. (see also my interpretation below)

I've come back this mornin' to where I first came alive
Here within this terminal where the buses arrive 
I was a commuter on the 804
Work for a computer on the 19th floor and...

You came down the aisle of the bus and you sat by my side
Shoulder up to shoulder we shared that 9 o'clock ride
Oh, my heart was screamin' as you left your seat
Followin' your movements I was at your feet and...

Oh, down into the terminal both of us smiled
So we entered the terminal just as you smiled
"Won't you leave out work for today?" you ask of me then
So I phoned-in-sick on the way to the home of a friend
We were all alone from 10 A.M. till 3
Really thought the fire had gone out of me but...

You awoke the sleep of my life from gray into red
Made the weary wonder of Wall Street rise from the dead
Could have held up budding my entire life
But I had to get home to the kids and the wife and...
So I left for the terminal where I began
Baby, no, I wouldn't have left if I'd been half a man

So here I am this morning where love had asked for the dance
Here within this terminal where I passed on a chance
Lord, I'll never find her though I've truly tried
Probably she's found another bus to ride and...

I am now about to begin the last of my days
I'm within what others would call a terminal phase
I myself can only say it's livin' dead
Ridin' to the office with a song in my head that goes...

La da da...
And you know it grows
La da da...
Oh, la da da...
Oh, la da da...

My Interpretation
This is a very sad story of a man finding his true love in a wrong time and wrong situation. You can feel in the lyrics that the man really fell in love... and as if the woman was really her soulmate... Some part of the lyrics says "You awoke the sleep of my life from gray into red. Made the weary wonder of Wall Street rise from the dead." This only shows that the man felt life again after meeting the girl. And he wanted the woman to be with him forever but unfortunately he is already a father to his kids and a husband to his wife. A less than half a man he was. He would have choose to be with the girl if he was not committed.  He gave up his personal happiness for what is currently important also for him... A given up true love for what he thinks must matter on his present life. And he was left going crazy over love.

Love really makes people crazy. That's true.

Monday, June 21, 2010


"You can't describe great cosmic significance to
a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all
anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence.
There are no miracles. There is no such thing as
fate. Nothing is meant to be."

 These are the last words spoken by the narrator under the very inspiring and very "true" movie 500 Days of Summer. This is one of the best movie I have ever watched in my entire life. Next to "My Sassy Girl."Contrary to what other people think, the story is NOT a love story.

Life. That is where the plot of story revolves. Summer reflects that life is life. While Tom's character describes a person that believes in destiny.

Whatever we do, decisions that we made, were part of the coincidence... These coincidences could be a significant factor in your future. Instances that are currently happening in one's life were not meant to happen. They were just "instances." And it's our job to interpret things and use that to improve your own life... or mess your own life... whatever you like. 


Wala na bang makakapantay 
at di na ba dapat pang maghintay
Ako lang ba ang nagkasala?
Kumakapit sa natitirang...

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Principle of Equivalent Trade

The principle of equivalent trade states that to
gain something, you must present something of
equal value. Perhaps that is the lesson... that
people cannot gain anything without sacrifices.

It's true. In order for us to get something, we actually sacrifice something... sometimes we are aware but most of the time we sacrifice or giveup something unconsciously. It happens on every activity that you are doing. Every walks of life.

Take for example a simple drinking of beer instead of drinking only water. You lose chances in an instance. But with the concept of equivalent trade I also ponder that decisions are critical in one's life.

We make decisions out of our choices. And out of our decision, we give up something. Something for us is less important. But people have dilemmas. It happens when we make false decisions and we regret something out of the decisions we once choose. This is the result of the "sacrifice" we unconciuosly created with our decisions.

I have made wrong decisions, who doesn't? But at the end of the day, I know, everything will fall to their places. I think that with the concept of equivalent trade, a thing given up for happiness would mean the same happiness for that "given-up-thing"... EQUAL VALUE. We just need to think and look at the brighter side of things. Sometimes, when we grasp and take a glimpse of the other view of things, we saw that we missed something... that is, the beauty of the other perspective.

It just lacks one thing... Appreciation.


I forgot to mention that this concept was taken from my favorite Anime... Yes, an anime manga. Shock?

This is one of the reason I got addicted with Full Metal Alchemist way back 3 years ago. The concept of equivalent trade really caught my attention and interest. By that time, I have relate this to a lot of things happening in people's live... my life. Its amazing that you'll get something out of an anime series intended for kids viewing.

Ciao! :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

Top 3 Movies I missed to watch at the big screen

I am so busy. Life has been so unfair for me lately. Where's my work-life balance? I haven't felt you for months. Now here I am posting on my site... blaming my "busy as hell" job. I seriously got busy and didn't even have a spare time to watch some movies which I normally do... Avatar, Shrek, Pirates of the Carribean, Calsh of the Titans, Valentines day...

So far, these are the three movies I SHOULD have watch but....

Top 3 Percy Jackson and the Olympians Lightning Thief - I am not sure if this is a cool and thrilling movie. But based on the feedback that I get from my friends and office mates, this is one hell of an entertainment. But they told me that there is nothing special about this movie. And a good sample for kids viewing. =)) haha! But still, I want to watch this movie.

Top2 Iron Man 2 - Iron Man 1 was a big success ( I assume). Haven't heard any good or bad feedbacks from this movie. The movie was more of a silent movie i guess... hmmm. But knowing how satisfying the prequel, sequel would surely be another hit for me.

Top1 Prince of Persia Sands of Time - This might be the biggest movie I ever missed in my entire life. I really waited for this movie ever since I watched the trailer. I have been a big fan of the game Prince of Persia. I was able to finish this game. That is maybe one of the reason why I really love to see the movie. I am really curious of how the creators make this as seamless as the game.

That's it. Now I swear to watch these movies and never miss.

Last Airbender

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Petiks ako at di ko sinasadya

Late na kong nakauwi dahil sa paggala sa Megamall kasama ang mga kawork ko. Ang aga namin dumating dun. Palibasa galing nightshift. Sale daw ang Nike sa Megamall up to 70% off. Nakigulo ako.
In the end... wala rin akong nabili. Di lang talaga ako mahilig mamili at nahihilo ako sa dami ng tao. Suko ako.

At dahil jan napuyat ako ng sobra. 3.30pm na ko nakatulog at kelangan ko gumising ng 6pm para pumasok. Halos walang tulog. Mali... wala pala talagang tulog. :)

Fast forward... 

Nagising ako at exactly 7pm (late na to para sa work ko @ 9pm). Dumating ako sa opis about 10.30pm. Awww! sobrang late. Pero dahil halos flexible ang sched ko, carry pa naman yan. (tigas ng muka ko).

Inaantok ako.. sobra. bukod sa wala akong tulog halos wala kasi akong gagawin ngaung araw na ito. Siguro mga first 3 hours pa lang tapos na lahat ng gagawin ko. So I decided to review the deck na topic sa meeting ko for tomorrow.

Napapaidlip ako. nakakahiya. Ikaw ba naman magbasa ng 47 slides na presentation plus another 39 slides pa. Kinukulit ko ang katabi kong si RM para lang magising ako. Kaso wa-epek talaga.

2 beses naglunch... 2 beses ng break... Chika moments pa sa mga kawork. Ganyan ka busy ang araw ko sa opis. Nakakapanibago. Di ako sanay ng walang ginagawa. Di ako sanay ng petiks. Parang ang haba ng oras sa opis. 

Di ko alam bat may mga tao akong kilala na pilit naghahanap ng work na petiks lang daw. Eh sa totoo lang naman pag ganung klaseng work ang hinanap mo, tatamarin ka. Ikaw na mismo ang maghahanap ng gagawin. Ang haba talaga ng oras. As in!

Lesson: wag kagad tapusin ang trabaho. chill chill lang dapat. Para may gagawin pa throughout the day. hehehe! Make sense? parang sablay ang moral lesson ko. 

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


The Moves...
The Smiles...
The Voice...
The Looks...
The Trips... 

Wala lang... eh ano naman ngaun?

Happy go lucky... pero hindi din, masayahin lang talaga.
Keeps hiding the eyes... hindi din mabangs lang talaga.
Always see laughing... parang baliw lang.
Loves to make face... sadyang ganyan lang siguro talaga.

C                        I                              E

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Aliens or time travelers?

Do you believe in aliens? These were creatures (sorry for the word, can't find anything that fits more) whom we know to have super powers and observe us from above with their Unidentified flying objects (UFO - disc shaped planes). They were usually described as more advanced creatures than human, who has the most advanced technology far from the technology we have right now.

Many reports claim a UFO sightings here in our planet and some really believed that humans were not the only creatures living in the galaxy. But is there really an alien and will the time come that the fictional  movie Alien Invation will really happen to the planet Earth?

I believe and at the same time do not believe that there are aliens. I believe that this creatures exist. But i think that those creatures riding with the UFOs were also human.. like us.

Yes. I believe that they are time travelers. You may think that I am crazy but think about it, they have the most advance technology and making a time machine would not be impossible. They are people who wanted to change something, some events in the past (which is our present) to correct the future. I do not believe on how movies physically describe them. They are also people.

I may be wrong. But this is just my opinion, belief and perspective. 

Aliens = Time travelers. Possible.


paalala: isa itong walang kwentang post. Nais ko lang idedicate ang post na to sa katrabaho kong si Raul.. :)

at akalain mong nakalogout ako sa opis ng sakto sa oras. People who came in and came out of the office at the exact time - we call them Honda or short for On da dot. Sakto sa tagalog.

minsan lang to. Madalas kasi ay napapaovertime ako sa dami ng gagawin. But this time i made it to the point na saktong 6am uuwi na ko (night shift). Pero mas naaliw ako sa partner kong si RM. Siya na siguro ang pinakaworkaholic na nakatrabaho ko. Akala ko nagiisa lang ako sa opis na inaabot ng siyam-siyam just to get everything done. 

Parehas kami ng ugali nitong ni RM. Ayaw umuwi ng hindi tapos lahat. Ayaw umuwi ng may mga pending sa desk. Naging ugali ko na din kasing hindi magpabukas ng trabaho. Di lang siguro ako mapalagay ng hindi plantsado lahat.

Bibo. Nakilala ko sa opis bilang bibo kid. Sa dami ng nakakakilala sakin dahil sa performance ko sa opis (ahem, konting yabang lang. pagbigyan), kaya lalo ako tuloy nabansagang bibo kid. Ewan ko ba, student pa lang ako madaldal na ko. Pag meron akong gusto malaman, I do everything to know that. Kung sa pa-curiousan lang eh panalo ako jan. Malikot lang siguro tlga ang isip ko.

Ayun at tayo'y lumayo. Bumalik tayo sa HON-DA. Na-overwhelmed lang tlga ako kasi bukod sakin, first time din ng kapwa ko TL na si RM na umuwi ng sakto sa oras. As in, unang beses nia tlga.


Naglalakad na kami sa labas ng building ng masabi ko sa kanya na.. "sana laging ganito.. sakto."
"Wala kaya akong nagawa ngaun," ika niya...
Natawa na lang ako.. Hahaha!

Monday, June 14, 2010

tanya markova

Ilang araw na din akong na LSS sa kantang PICTURE PICTURE
Isang araw ay nagbablog ako ng mag guest ang bandang tanya markova sa show na wowowee.. Nung una ay hindi ko pinansin. Muka kasi silang papansin sa itsura nila. Maputing muka na parang gawgaw na ewan. Sabi ko, another trying hard na band na naman 'to. 

Wala kong intensyon na makinig sa music nila. Nagkataon lang na hindi ako nakaheadset that time while browsing my facebook. And to my surprise, parang may dating ung kanta nila.. catchy ung song. And then i stopped browsing for awhile and turned my ears to their song.

Mukang nabitin ako kaya i went back to browsing.. but this time sa youtube na. Di ko pa alam pangalan ng band nila kaya nagtanong pa ako sa kapatid ko.. "sino yang band na yan?" "tanya markova kuya.". So type ako sa youtube. "TANYA MARKOVA". Aba may lumabas, at un nga ung single nila na picture picture. May music video na din pla sila.. So i've checked.. hmmm.. ayus ah. malinis pla sila tumugtog.. kasi halos parehas ung dating sa live at sa recorded.

I've also checked some of their songs at okay naman. iba ung genre nila at catchy mga songs. simple pero may dating. Nacurious din ako why tanya markova name na band nila. Ung tanya pertains to Tanya Garcia.. crusj daw nila lahat. Ung Markova, ewan ko.. hahaha! baka trip trip lang. o baka naman si Tanya Garcia ay mukang bakla??? hahaha! di naman cguro...

Kaya ayan, change music muna ko sa blog ko. Set aside muna emoness... :) Ung tumutugtog po ay ung Picture Picture.. obvious naman ata.. first few words ng lyrics panay Picture(2x).. haha! 

Looking forward on buying their album.. Pero Silent Santuary muna bilin ko. haha! :)

- Lestat :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Team Lead w/o a team?

"Great discoveries and achievements invariably involve the cooperation of many minds."
Alexander Graham Bell

It's been 2 weeks since I started working by myself due to demands and preparations of the new project that will be transitioned to us. I was given the opportunity to lead again a new workstream within our project. The new project will be transitioned completely to us by August. For now, I need to make preparations for this.  A work without my team. 

I have been working for many years with my team on my side. Now, I need to adjust for a couple of months and wait for my new team. I miss them. Although I am seeing them everyday, It's still different to say that I have my team. 

When I work, I treat them as my partners and not just the people under with my supervision. Maybe that is one key factor why the team was very intact and always work with one goal.  We solved problems as a team, we laugh as a team, and we celebrate as a team.

I miss the guys and I am looking forward working with them again.

"Team Ben. One Team. One Goal." 

- Lestat :)

Yufi Blue b0ok

If you were to change the color of blue book, what would it be?
"I would change the color to RED. Because it feels like war when taking exams!"
{One of the questions on my UPLB yearbook}

I miss the blue book. Eto ung sikat na sikat na papel sa buong UP system. Pag may hawak ka nian alam na may exam ka. and Good Luck! At hindi tumatanggap ang professor ng ibang papel bukod jan. Kaya magdala ka ng mga dalawa para in case essay ang exam mo, eh hindi ka mabibitin sa pagsusulat.

Halo-halong emotions ang dala ng blue book sa isang UP student. 
Minsan masaya...
Minsan malaungkot...
Nakakaiyak... lalo na pag do or die na.. Removal exam na! hehehe!

Naalala ko pa nung freshman pa ko sa college. Unang schedule ng exam ko nun sa isang subject. Exam week at pinagdadala kami ng blue book para sa exam. Clueless talaga ko nun kung ano ung blue book. Bukod sa iniisip ko na exam na nga, baka mahal pa ung blue book na yun. At bawat subject kelangan ng ganun. Nagboboard lang ako nun at bilang isang hamak na estydyante, sakto lang ang allowance ko na dala para sa isang buong linggo.

Uwian na at malayo pa ang susunod na subject ko. Malapit lang naman yung boarding house ko kaya naglakad-lakad muna ko para maghanap ng blue book. To my surprise, ang akala kong blue book na mahal ay worth P1.50 lang pala! At ang nipis nia (notebuk ba tlga ito? hehe!). So sobrang gulat, napabili ako ng sampu. 

Nakakamiss din ang buhay estudyante. After exam week, todo gimik na! hingi ka lang allowance kung wala ka ng pera. Di ganung kakomplikado ang buhay. Minahal ko na din ang score na madalas kong makuha sa blue book... tres, 2.5, dos, 1.75, at syempre UNO!! haha!

Pero bihira akong makakita ng markang uno sa bluebook ko. Iskul bukol din kasi ako nung college. Ako ung tipo ng student na sakto lang. tama lang. Di ako grade conscious. What is important mapasa ko at may matutunan ako. Hindi ko din naman kasi inasam na gumradweyt with flying colors at laude laude. tama na ung balanse ang school at social life! Agree? =))

anggang dito na lang. ;)

- Lestat :)

Saturday, June 12, 2010

My Own

There are some people who will never let you down. No matter how life sucks on you. They will always be there at your side, supporting and loving you. They are loving you unconditionally. They are not perfect and so do I. But with them, imperfections becomes nothing but a mere slight defects of your personality. And they'll accept you more because of your imperfections. They are none other than your FAMILY. Who has been there all through these years. 

Happiness. Sadness. Scariest day of your life. Funniest moment.

I love them for being "them" and true to me always. 

Thank you for always supporting me on my decisions and respecting me for who I am as a son... as a Kuya... as a sibling... as a friend. :)

- Lestat :)

Overwhelmed part 2!

at sobrang napagod ako ngaun kakabasa at kakareply sa lahat ng bumati sakin sa facebook. Mas marami pa pla sa inaasahan ko.. hehe! patikim lang pala ung una.

maraming salamat muli sa inyo mga kapatid! :)

- Lestat :)

Friday, June 11, 2010

one tEXt

It is now my birthday and expecting alot of greetings.
from friends, family, long lost friends, officemates, my Bosses :)

But although I really think that She will me greet today, I didn't expect that it really did impact me. Just one text and boom!, here we go again. But, maybe the difference is I can now control myself compare to last time. I replied...

"Thanks. Ingat Lagi"

That's it... and back to what I am doing.

I really don't want to get affected again.


- Lestat :)


I would really like to thank everyone who took time to visit my facebook wall and greet me with a happy birthday!

I really appreciate it and I was very happy that I have lots of friends surrounding my simple world. 

It even took me more or less 30 minutes just to reply back and say thank you to these people. Wheeww!! hehehe! But it was worth the 30 minutes of my time... and I wish it's more than that! :)

Love you all :)

- Lestat :)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Its all about the Math

 I find this funny and interesting.. I just want to share... 

Step1>> To find a Woman you need Time and Money. Therefore,

Step2>> Time is Money so...

Step3>> Therefore,

Step4>> Money is the root of all problems

Step5>> Therefore,

Hahahaha! No Comment! :)

Pancit Canton + Ice Tea

The heat is on!

Rainy days na ba o summer pa din? Ganito kagulo ang panahon ngaun sa Pilipinas. 

Kakauwi ko lang from work. Mula sa kulang-kulang dalawang oras na byahe mula office anggang bahay, super hagard na ang pagiitsura ko. Ang init kasi.. nakakaalibadbad talaga.

Gutom at uhaw. inabutan ko ang kapatid kong nagluluto ng pancit canton (eto ung lucky me pancit canton).. 

Ako: Ui sarap nian ah.. penge.
Kapatid: Ha? eh noodles na lang sayo..
Ako: Eh wag na, ang init kaya tapos magnunoodles ka...
Kapatid: O cge sayo na lang to, ako na lang magnoodles
Ako: (yey!)

Open ko ang laptop. Log-in. Open ang Blog ko, Open ang facebook. OPen ang YM... habang kumakain ng pancit canton...

Sweet din tong kapatid ko at pinagtimpla pa ko ng Nestea Ice Tea! Wow naman! saktong sakto sa init ng panahon.. Super enjoy ang ice tea! 

Wala talagang kupas ang tandem ng pancit canton at ice tea... mula noon anggang ngaun.

Di ako endorser ng Lucky Me at Nestea (hehehe)... unless madiscover nila ako. haha! (feelingero)

Para naman masulit ang pagkatakam, eto ang pictures...

- Lestat :)

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


so near yet so far.
sobrang busy ko na ba? o...
sobrang wala lang akong gana?

di ko napansin na 2 days to go na lang kaarawan ko na pala... akalain mong nagbebirthday din pala ako.
pero kaibahan sa mga nagdaang kaarawan ko, ngaun wala akong gana to celebrate.
walang plano...

siguro dadaan na lang ang araw na ito tulad ng isang ordinaryong araw.
mas masaya pa siguro ang mga tao sa paligid ko kesa sa sarili ko who really wants to celebrate my birthday.

kamusta na?
ano na?
paninom ka...
saan tayo?

sagot ko... ngiti lang. "walang plano... di ko pa alam... bahala na"

ewan ko ba, sana magbago pa mood ko. alam ko isa to sa mga mahahalagang araw sa buhay ko. Araw din upang magpasalamat sa Kanya para sa isang taon ulit na ibinigay Nia sa akin.

malamang may kulang sa buhay ko. at hindi ko basta basta mapupunan ung kulang na iyon.

maligayang kaarawan sakin.

- Lestat :)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

emote na naman

Ipipikit ko ang aking mata dahil
Nais ka lamang mahagkan
Nais ko lamang masilayan
Kahit alam kong tapos na
Kahit alam kong wala ka na!

- Lestat :'c


I guess there's really no infinite in life. 
A moment has its ending... 
A thing has its expiration... 
A feeling has its limit.

- Lestat :'c

Monday, June 7, 2010


Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this through my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the last girl on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

'Coz Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you

Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

- Lestat :)


"Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan"
Sa lahat ng inumin, palagay ko ang beer na ang pinakamabenta. Kung san may celebration andun siya at di mawawala. Mapabirthday, binyag, kasalan, minsan kahit happy Friday lang okei na. hehe! Pero ang pinakamadalas na kasama nian eh ung mga problemado. Problemado sa buhay, sa lovelife, sa family, sa skul at kung san san pa.

Minsan ko na din namang naging kadamay ang beer sa problema. Di ba sabi nga nila, kung di kaya sa mabuting usapan, idaan na lang sa maBOTEng usapan. Mas masarap pa ngang kasama ang bote.. atleast un hindi ka iiwan.. until supplies last... anggat may 7eleven at Ministop, dehins ka mauubusan ng supply. hehe! 

Masarap ding makipagkwentuhan pag anjan ang beer sa lamesa. Bukod sa sobrang ingay na (na halos lahat bumabangka na pag tinamaan na), lumalabas din ang tunay na saloobin tungkol sa mga usapin lalo na sa usaping pagkakaibigan. May mga nagkakaaminan din minsan dahil sa alak. At may mga sikretong nabubunyag! haha! 

Lumuha na din ako kasamaang beer. Isa un sa mga moments ko na hindi ko makakalimutan sa buhay ko. Sa beer na din ako kumuha ng lakas para magpakatotoo sa sarili ko at sa nararamdaman ko. Naging karamay sa mga panahong sobrang down ako at pakiramdam ko ay nagiisa ako.

Iba talaga ang hiwagang dala ng beer sa buhay ng tao. 

Paalala: Kung masosobrahan sa beer, wag dadalin sa utak, sa tiyan lang. haha!

- Lestat :)

Sunday, June 6, 2010

I miss my laptop

It's been a month since my laptop have problems with software and I can't use it. I am using an Acer laptop. I decided to go to Alabang Festival Mall and have my laptop diagnose for the real cause of the problem and hoping to get a resolution and have it fixed. 

At around 3pm I arrived at the mall. Ride with the escalator and walk. And then, boom! I saw this store (i forgot the store name). They specialize in upgrading and fixing laptop and desktops. So I asked one of the store negotiator and explain to her the problem I am experiencing with my laptop.

The windows keeps on restarting and the power suddenly turns off after a while. The lady told me that my problem would be on the operating system (OS) and they want me to buy a license windows. I asked the sales lady if there would be no other way other than buying a license windows since I know that licensed windows cost a lot... and I am not willing to buy that. Not that I do not have money to buy it but i find it impractical to buy a licensed windows when I can buy a pirated version (hehehe!). So what I did, I went back home and buy a pirated version of Windows XP. I tried reformatting the laptop again. I am very nervous that my laptop will suddenly turn off again once i inserted the cd. To my surprise, it didn't. Hmmm... I guess the sales lady is correct. It does only need reformatting of OS... except that it does not need a licensed windows.. Haha! thanks to her, I got my laptop fixed. 

My laptop is doing ok now except that I can no longer retrieve my old files... and that's a BIG Crap!!

Now, I will definitely take care of my laptop again. I really miss using it. 

To sum it up, 

One Pirated Windows XP + reformat + hours of waiting = Fixed Laptop!

I am so happy! Yey! :)

- Lestat :)