nearing death

I feel the pain growing in my chest as I lay on the rough ground. My heart keeps pounding very hard and it’s getting harder and harder. I feel my whole body… the pain slowly eats me, I wanted to scream but voice was not coming out of my mouth or maybe I wasn’t hearing anything at all. Murmurs… all I hear are murmurs from my surrounding. I feel like an alien who cannot understand their language, it only echoes in my ear. Suddenly my body is getting numb and the pain is slowly fading… should I be happy that the pain is gone?

My sight is getting blurry and I can no longer recognize the objects in front of my face… I see only movements but not as definite as I view things previously. A ray of light suddenly appears in front of me. It’s very bright that can blind anyone who directly sees it. Pictures are moving fast In front of my naked eye… I realize that they are no ordinary pictures, they are my memories. They move like a speed of light… so fast yet it slows down to a part of my memory seeing my family…
 

We are very happy. Smile was always in the lips of my wife… then we hug each other… kiss each other. A few seconds I saw her waving and tears starts to drop in my eyes. What did I do? Why am I here lying and deeply breathing? Why? I wonder.
 

The lights are now slowly fading and darkness is slowly conquering my vision.  Darkness covers half of my sight just like how a moon blinds a sun. God forgive me, I have become a sinner.  It’s over… it’s finally over.
 

I was lying on the ground… alone.
 

Everything stops then suddenly there’s peace.

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Just get curious on the concept of dying and death itself. I am also curious what dying people think and feel when they are on that part of their life. Is this really something we should fear? The post above describes how a criminal dies and purely based on my imagination. Again, just my imagination. :D