Music. Journey. Paramore. to misery business.

Music has been part of my life and I think everyone's life too. Yes. I am a certified addict when it comes to music. I dunno... I think same with how other people connect with this language, I feel a part of me was complete once I started listening to songs. You are full of emotions and people of different nations and race connect to a universal language called music. 

Love songs, R&B, Jazz, Rock, Pop, Alternative... name it. Music of different genre but with the same purpose... to express oneself.

Long Kiss Goodbye

"How long before we see each other again?"
What made me think that you were saying it with a nice expression?
I pretend that there's nothing bothering me
I'll listen 'till morning as you make excuses
Because I want us to be connected

I don't even want to see your face along the river anymore
No development will come from this, my cell phone dances
If It's goodbye mail, I want to forget about it
"Hold me tight" but "I want to disappear to somewhere"
Any time that you're talking too much you don't seem to notice

I let you see that "I cry" a little while pretending to be strong
How well did those tears work on you?

Even though "I want to be loved" in my own way
It fills me, but I can't see you
I just have the feeling that I'll never see you again...
I want to tell you that, but I can't find the right words
Maybe it's okay if I lie, but I can't even say "Don't go away"

When our hands come apart
Will you forget someday?
About me?

Not Feeling Well

napakamalas ko nga naman...
dumaan lang ang weekend ko ng walang nagagawa. Tambay sa bahay.

ang malas tlga pag may sakit ka... wala kang magawang bagay kundi humilata, magpahinga, uminom ng gamot at tumahol sa kakaubo. napakasakit pa ng ulo ko dahil sa sipon. 

namiss ko tuloy ang pagbablog. pati pagbati sa mga kaibigan ko dito sa blogsphere.. :)

well, looking forward na maging okei na din ako despite na inuubo pa din.

see you soon my blog site.. for now sign off muna ako.

An advice from a friend

There are no guarantees, that's what makes it exciting and scary at the same time. Think.... poker =D the higher the stakes, the bigger the rush... ergo, the bigger the disappointment din... but if you hit the jackpot, sarap naman ng feeling. That's what you should aim for.

Life (and love) is a gamble. You gotta play it with eyes closed and fingers crossed... and an open heart. Love like you've never been hurt.... because there is no other way of loving anyway... but with your whole heart.

- Ms Gina

A story of LOVE in 3 perspective

This is not an original post of mine but I wanted to share this reading my fellow office-mate have sent me awhile ago. While I was reading this, I can't help but smile to some points but at the same time sympathize. Try to figure out which are you...  Are you a tree? A leaf? or a wind? I just figured out mine.

 
TREE 
People call me "Tree".
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I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl who I love a
lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, or good
figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just an ordinary girl.

I liked her. I really liked her.

I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her
fragility. Reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody so
ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that
after we were together, all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid
other's gossip would hurt her. I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be
mine ultimately and I didn't have to give up everything just for her.

The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years.
She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3
years. She was a good actress and me a demanding director. When I kissed
my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled
and said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were
swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to know what caused her to cry.
Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something and
watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them
quarreled. I know that based on her character, she's not the type that
will start off the quarrel. But I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted
at her and ignored her feelings then walked off with my girlfriend. The
next day, she was laughing and joking with me like nothing happened. I
know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day,
I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup.
Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting
together. I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk
of the school.

I didn't show her my heartache, just smiles and best wishes. Once I
reached home, I couldn't breathe. Tears rolled and I broke down. How
many times have I seen her cry for the man who didn't acknowledge her
presence?

During graduation, I received a text message from her. It said, "Leaf's
departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask
her to stay ..."

 
LEAF
People call me "Leaf".
*******************************************************

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as
buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learned a feeling I
never should've learned - jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They
were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him and I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? If he
really loves me, why didn't he make the first move?

Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time,
I began to suspect that this was one sided love. If he didn't like me,
why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a
friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can
never figure out.

You can't expect from a girl like me to ask him. Despite that, I still
wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping
that one day, he will come to love me too. And because of this, I waited
for him.

Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the
dilemma accompanied me for 3 years. At the end of my 3rd year, a junior
pursues me.

He's like the cool and gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a
tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small
footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better
land.

Finally leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled and didn't ask the
leaf to stay.

"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree
didn't ask her to stay..."


WIND
People call me "Wind". 
*******************************************************

Because I like a girl called "Leaf". Because she's so dependent on the
tree so I have to be a gust wind, a wind that will blow her away.

When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with
her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy
in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.

Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain
the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was not there
as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior
scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left.

The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked
over and smiled at her, took out a note and gave it to her. She was
surprised. She looked at me, smiled, and accepts the note.

The day after, she appeared and passes me a note and left. "Leaf's heart
is too heavy and the wind couldn't blow her away".

"It's not that leaf's heart is too heavy. It's simply because leaf never
wants to leave the tree". I replied her note with this statement and
slowly she started to talk to me and accept my presents and phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance
that one day, I will make her like me.

Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If
I'm really decided for her to be mine, I will definitely use all means
to win her over.

I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although
I know she will always try to change the topic, I still bear a small ray
of hope deep within me, that she will agree to be my girlfriend. And so
I asked her again.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you
doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"

"I'm nodding my head", she said.
"Huh?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head", she replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed, took a taxi and rushed to her
place. My hands were trembling when I press the doorbell.
I hugged her tightly as she opened the door.

"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree
didn't ask her to stay..."