TACIT LEXIS

L'Arc~en~Ciel ラルクアンシエル

2011-02-28T01:38:00.003+08:00

Aside from Yui, whom I featured as one of the deadliest female recording artist of Japan, L'Arc~en~Ciel is second from the list. Compare to Yui, who is a single recording artist, L'Arc~en~Ciel is a band. My first encounter of their song is from the popular classic anime Rurouni Kenshin or what other popularly known as Samaurai X. This anime was first aired in the Philippines in Channel 23 during Satrudays at 7pm. Who does not know Battousai? eh? :)

Here's what I got from Wikipedia.com:

L'Arc-en-Ciel (ラルクアンシエル Raruku an Shieru^?, "The Rainbow" in French), usually stylized as "L'Arc~en~Ciel", is a Japanese rock band that formed in 1991. The group has sold over 13 million albums, 16 million singles, and millions of other units, including videos.^[1] They were ranked at number 58 on a list of Top 100 Japanese pop musicians, provided by HMV Japan in 2003, and are among the most influential artists in the Japanese music scene.^[2]

Hmmm.. pretty interesting band eh? They sold 13 million albums, what the ***!! lol!

Their band became very controversial when their former drummer Sakura was arrested for illegal possesion of drugs. This had proved to be one of the bands downfall. However, later on, with the help of each members including Hyde, the vocalist, they were able to regain the scene and make a return in the music industry.

Okay enough of their biography, let's look at some of their songs and their contribution to Japanese anime.

The Fourth Avenue Cafe ~ 4th ending theme of "Rurouni Kenshin"
Niji ~ ending theme of "Rurouni Kenshin the movie"
Spirit Dreams Inside ~ closing theme of "Final Fantasy: the spirits within"
Ready, Steady, Go! ~ opening song of "Full Metal Alchemist"
Link ~ opening song of "Full Metal Alchemist: Movie"
Lost Heaven ~ Closing theme of "Full Metal Alchemist: Movie"
Shine ~ opening theme of "Moribito: Guardian of the Spirit"
Drink it Down ~ opening theme of Devil May Cry 4 game
Driver's High ~ opening theme of "Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO)"
Daybreak's Bell ~ opening theme of "Gundam 00"

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References:

Pictures courtesy of google search engine

Facts courtesy of wikepedia.com

Yui

2011-02-22T05:02:00.001+08:00

Watching anime has been part of my life since childhood days. Aside from the addictive plot of these Japanese animations, their music has been one of the factors why I still continue watching their work of art, as I may say. :)

Are you familiar with "Rolling Star," an opening song from the anime "Bleach"? This is one of those catchy songs I have heard from an anime so far. The craving to listen to this song drove me to search the artist behind this song. And the google search showed me this name... "Yui."

Yui is one of the most popular singer-songwriter & composer of her time. Her full name is Yui Yoshioka but she was popularly known with her first name, YUI. She had sold millions of copies of her albums and won different awards. She had 4 albums and "Holidays in the Sun" as her latest.

What I wanted to share though is not about her biography but what are her songs that surprisingly used as either an opening or ending theme of Anime. You'll be surprise that all along you were listening to her voice. :)
Here are some of her songs excerpt from Japanese animations.

Rolling Star ~ 5th opening song from anime "Bleach"
Life ~ 5th ending song from anime "Bleach"
Again ~ 1st opening song from anime "Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood"
It's all too much/Never say die ~ opening and insert song from anime movie "Kaiji"

I consider her as one of the successful artists of our time. :) Enjoy listening.

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References:
Pictures courtesy of google search engine
Facts courtesy of wikepedia.com

Beautiful Lie

2011-02-19T06:34:00.003+08:00

I just can't accept the fact that there are lies so beautifully structured... you can't see how dark it is in the surface.
It will make you believe and later make you dumb.
Then you'll soon realize that you've just been played.

Have you felt such thing like this?

Perfect denial.

Benh R.I.P?

2011-02-10T05:18:00.011+08:00

Ooouuucchhh.. Akala ko, akala mo at akala nating lahat siguro eh deds na ko! Why o why? kasi sa tgal kong nahiatus (kuno). Hahaha!

It's been a busy months for me. Work. Trainings. Transitions. Escalations. Family. Love. Friends. BEER. :D

Naku sino ba naman ako para magreklamo sa dami ng ginagawa sa buhay... atleast alam ko na may ginagawa ako. And besides, who, in this crazy world, are not busy with their own lives? Db db? (that just washed off my arguments.. hehe! oh well)

I'm back. Alive. Kicking. And ready to spank everyone again (parang iba dating. :D)

I miss this. This moment of silence facing my laptop before I go to bed. I miss the sound of this chicklet keyboard as I press them. But, more than anything else... I miss YOU.

That's it. More to come. :)

P.S
pansin ko lang... lahat ng friends ko dito sa blogsphere eh nagpalit na ata ng layout o skins ako na lang hindi. ~~TAMAD~~. hehehehe

choose

2011-02-01T05:36:00.003+08:00

You can't have the best of both worlds.

You need to choose.

Sometimes, we are only allowed to choose once.

and the other choice will no longer be an option.

When you finally decide to choose...

hold on with it... fight for it... live with it.

Why?

'cause sooner you'll realize...

there's no turning back.

Keep on

2011-01-24T03:23:00.000+08:00

at the end of the day or after a long waited (un)expected outcome of an unendless longing of something...

we still manage to straighten up everything or atleast tried to...

and keep on learning...

that not all the world can offer is Good... sometime's it's Bad or...

Worse.

Tokio Hotel.

2011-01-16T16:49:00.000+08:00

Among the international bands that I like to listen to, this is one of those that caught my attention instantly (not to mention 30 seconds to Mars, too). But this band was entirely different with the music of 30 seconds to Mars.

I just recently discovered this band when it was introduced to me by my girlfiend weeks ago. I was surprised that they were German band and I don't understand any single lyric on their songs. Fortunately, after the big success of their first album "Schrei," they released an english version of thier first album and later created english versions of their succeeding albums and singles. Their hit song "Burch Den Monsun" was later translated to english with title "Monsoon." And so their other songs like 1000 Oceans, Scream, Ready, Set, Go!, etc.

Their song "Automatic" first reigned the top 1 on Myx. Yes, our local music channel. After several awards from MTV and the first ever German Band that sold million of copies in Europe, they were finally invading Asia.

The band is composed of Twin Brothers Bill & Tom Kaulitz, Vocalis and guitars, respectively. Georg Listing (Bass Guitar) and Gustav Schafer (Drums)

The name "Tokio Hotel" was excerpt from "Tokyo" their love of the city and "Hotel" for non-permanency and always moving from one place to another.

wrapper

2010-12-22T17:05:00.001+08:00

A lot of people, including you, I guess, are very busy citing for some stuff on sale to give as a gift this coming yuletide season. For your mother... friends... crushes... BF/GF... and the like. However, there is only one thing I like to receive this Christmas. I want this wrapped perfectly. I want you to wrapped me around your arms.

Cheeeesssyy!! putek!

Pagpasensyahan niyo na dear friends, nagaabnormal lang.

~untitled

2010-12-13T17:10:00.001+08:00

"No matter how blurred the world is, It's you whom I see filled with sparkling colors. I may not see you perfectly but I am certain, 100% of my heart, feels that this woman is you."

12.05.2.04

2010-12-08T15:56:00.001+08:00

Finally, the long wait is over.

The journey to your heart had already reach its ending...

A sweet ending.

From Augustus to decem
Finally I decided to step and stand in front of your heart.

I Knocked once... twice...

Never believe that you open the door wholeheartedly and let me in.

I am here.
Lying in the beach and staring at the stars.
I freely shouted in the deep and darkest of the night
"I love you" - three words that comes out of my mouth

Feels like the happiest moment of my life.

That I hope will last... 4ever.

wag mo to i-click

2010-12-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

Aayyy.. Pasaway ka din eh no? di mo ba nabasa ung title? Wag mo daw iclick.. ano inglisera ka ba?? in english do not push the butones. ay bahala ka na nga...

Minsan gusto ko magisip ng mga bagay-bagay pero ayaw makisama ng utak at imahinasyon ko... naisip ko tuloy na baka wala talaga akong naiisip mula sa utak ko... pero the mere fact kasi na nagiisip ako is a proof na may isip ako, db? Weird lang kasi maiisip ko na lang bigla na "ay naku walang isip".. walang mahita sa kakarampot kong utak na pinagsiksikan lang ata sa maliit kong bungo.

Hay naku... walang kang mapapala kakabasa ng poste na to.. kung ako sayo magclick ka na jan ng ibang site.. Punta ka sa site na to ~~"www.xxx.com"~~ maraming chicks jan.. hehehe! Ay pano ka pla eh babae ka... hmmm.. wala kong alam na site na bagay sayo eh.. punta ka na lang dito "www. facebook.com" tapos post ka ng mga cheesy lines.. hehe! O ano pa ginagawa mo? punta ka na dun sa mga sites na nirecommend ko.. Aba, aba, ang kulit mo din eh no? nagaaksaya ka ng oras dito.. bahala ka.. adik!

So ganito na lang tayo, di ka pa rin lilipat ng site?? Ayaw mo pa rin umalis ah.. matapos na nga tong kalokohang pagsusulat na to.

END. Behlat!! :p

Yabang! :)

2010-11-28T15:26:00.000+08:00

November 22, 2010 @ Manila Shangri-La Hotel. The "Accenture BPO A-List Awards" night was held. I was fortunate to be nominated and be one of the winners of one of the categories under this prestigious award given to employees of Accenture who showed excellence in their work and wants to be recognize by the company. There are 3 categories and I am an awardee of the "Delivery and Operational Excellence Award." This is given to employees that excel in their line of work and delivering not only the required output but exceeding what is expected.

This is actually my second time to be given such award. The first was on year 2008, the Huwaran Award or the Value Creator award. And before, this award giving body was called "BPO Natatanging Gawad Awards." This is given to those who brings innovation to the deal.

This would not be possible without these people who supported me eversince I started working.

My Team
My Co Team Leads
My Supervisor & Manager
My Unit Lead

It is my pleasure to be part of the Accenture A-List.

(By the way hi-way, the event host is KC Montero and guest is Nikki Gil. I was starstrucked with Nikki, I thought she's not that so pretty but during the event, she is!! and fantastic voice!)

More Pictures

Mr KC Montero, our host.

ehem.. :)

Ms Nikki Gil, our guest.

footsteps

2010-11-25T12:13:00.000+08:00

I am walking in the beach... alone. My footsteps were the only thing that accompanied me in this endless walk... footsteps that I can only see when I turn my head back despite that I am moving forward. I can also see the waves. It creates a very relaxing but very sad sound... a noise for me. A very dramatic moment that takes me back to the memories I once treasure in my life.

I hear the tweeting of birds while flying up in the sky leaving only shadows upon my face. I envy their freedom. I envy the way they swing their wings against the wind. I hope I have my own.

I was stuck looking at the different things surrounding me while walking alone in this beach, I didn't noticed that a lot of time had passed. I looked down and saw again my footsteps. A far I can see them slowly fading.

I smiled. For some reason I did smile. It symbolizes something that I am waiting all my life... footsteps to fade.

Farther in front of me I see something blurry, I think I see a person, I think I see her. I smile...

... and I now see footsteps without turning my head back.

Him

2010-11-22T11:59:00.000+08:00

There are billion stars in the sky. But one star outshone the rest and that star cannot be seen up where the meteors and other bodies of galaxy is staying. That star is you.

Few people had noticed you.

Few people had appreciated you.

Most of the time you don't want to be appreciated and that is how you want your life be... simple.

But the time has come that a man had discovered the beauty of your simplicity.

A man who wants you to be appreciated.

A man who likes you when the times that you hate yourself.

A man who has been exagerratedly laughing when you are "just laughing"

A man who buys every joke that you throw at him.

A man who likes you everything about you.

He, a man, who loves you more than you love yourself.

Him, who says you are pretty when you feel you are not.

A man who sees you as a great person when you think you are not.

He who will always be your number one fan...

and the president of your invisible fans club...

HIM who synonymously means ME

Bang! Bang!

2010-11-17T15:10:00.001+08:00

and here it goes...

I didn't know how this happen and what in the WORLD you did to me...

that I am starting to feel the shots...

The glimmering speed of arrow straightly stab into my heart...

you may think that I am crazy... ohhh.. yes I think I am...

'coz I am cr8zy ov8r you. :)

Experience: Snorkling

2010-11-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

This is again one of the installment post of my side trip in Boracay. Have you tried to wear a snorkling gear? This is my first time to do snorkling and I am really nervous. One simple and valid reason... I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM.. :'c I was really hesitant to jump off the boat since I dont know how to swim and afraid of thinking where would the current of the water will take me. But thanks to life jacket, I am floating! Getting out of my comfort zone again is another milestone. This is such a wonderful experience especially for those who loved to see fishes under the sea. Okay so much for the talk..blah.. blah.. blah.. Here are some of the pictures.

Review: A Moment to Remember

2010-11-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

"I have an eraser in my head"

-Su Jin

This might be one of the best Asian movies I have watched in romatic drama genre.

Imagine yourself falling inlove to a perfect girl. Everything seems to go as planned and just like a fairy tale that always says "And they lived happily ever after," they thought that nothing else can separate them from each others arms. Until...

How far can love take you when the person you love will start to forget all her memories, all her past, including you? You'll wake up, hug her tight, kiss her and ask you "Who are you?"

If you are a big fan of love stories with a twist in the plot and loves Korean films, I highly recommended this movie. The movie was released in year 2004. I really don't want to talk much of the plot of the story. Just find out yourself [Don't want to be a great spoiler! :)]

Trivia: The girl in the movie was actually the girl who played the role in Endless Love Summer Scent.

NU 107 (a wave to the airwaves)

2010-11-08T14:16:00.006+08:00

Last night aired the last songs coming from one of my favorite radio station NU 107.

Yes, you heard it right. The station is already in sunset. Before we finally bid farewell to this rockin' station, let's relive some of the highlights of their 23 years of existence.

As the name suggest, this station was purely focused on marketing Philippine rock music. Most of the time, the new breeds of rock icons starts in this station. They started the segment "In the Raw" where they featured new breeds of rock bands and give them opportunities to showcase their talents. Hopefully with the airing off of the station, bands will not take this as a hindrance in performing and continuing their music.

One of the milestone of NU Rock was introducing the NU Rock Awards which happens every year. This event features Rock bands contributions to music industry and awarding those who had really influenced Filipino music. Some of the bands featured are The Dawn, After Image (during the 90's) and then followed by Eraserheads, Parokya ni Edgar and the likes. Then music evolved to sounds of Wolfgang, Razorback,and Slapshock, a more whitish rock type. Then also came in the mellow rock like those of Rivermaya, Bamboo and Sandwich. The last NU Rock Awards was aired October 29 of this year.

Rock music has been evolving throughout time. And with the closure of one of the legendary Rock Music starters, I hope, as a rock music fan, this will not stop music industry from playing rock music in the airwaves!

So long NU 107! Thank you for sharing us wonderful music and Filipino talents!

Kudos!

Testi

2010-11-05T14:59:00.002+08:00

Naalala ko pa nun.. College ako nung magsimula kang maging sikat. Sa sobrang kasikatan mo ay nahumaling din ako at nakijoin sayo. Naging masaya naman ako at dahil sayo marami din akong nakilala... naging kaibigan. Hindi nabubuo ang araw ko ng hindi ka man lang nasisilayan... kung baga hindi mapakali pag di ka man lang nakita.

Namimiss ba kita? hindi din. Cguro dahil may nakita na kong iba. Dun mas naging masaya ako. Mas patok ang mga gimik at talaga namang samdamakmak ang naging kaibigan ko. Oo, nahigitan ka niya.

Masakit mang sabihin ngunit naging desperado ka.. nagawa mong maging copycat! kung baga sa DVD, naging pirated ka! Kahit alam naman nating mas nauna kang nanghumaling ng mga tulad kong naging fanatic sayo. Nakakabwisit ang ginawa mo! Dahil sa sobrang inis ko ay nagawa kong patayin ka sa sistema ko.

Patawad... Frenster account ko.

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P.S

Naalala ko lang ung frenster natin. Ako, ikaw, tayo.. alam ko lahat tayo may profile dun. Nakakamiss bang magmakaawa para lang sa testi?^_^

testi naman jan!

First Blog Award

2010-11-04T14:12:00.004+08:00

WOW! I received my first ever blog award. Thank you CLAUM for this 'One Lovely Blog' award. :)

Now it's time to share this award to other blogs that I follow and visit every time. And the award goes to ... *drumroll*

Unni

VELIZ
SikoletLover
Mitchie

Khanto

Poldo

Yanah
EM
Dark Lady

NaFA

Driver
Axl
Leah
Ayu

Here are the rules for this award:

1. Accept the award.

2. Post it on your blog together with the name of the person who
has granted the award, and his or her blog link.

3. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered.
Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have
been chosen for this award.

~First

2010-11-02T15:18:00.003+08:00

She is a complete stranger though we have been working on the same building, same roof, same deal, same team. I was busy with my life & my attention was focused only on working. A choice to devote my whole time on work.

She stepped in my small world when suddenly I moved out to go to another change I need to face. What the?! I guess we're not meant to be.

Time passed by. I am still busy as she is. Logged in at work, logged out. Friday night. Tipsy Saturday, Sunday family day... and back to Monday madness. We did not notice each other.

As the saying goes, everything will fall to their places...

One day, unexpectedly, we cross our paths in a cafeteria. I just noticed her eating together with a friend. They stepped out, we came in. But the funny part is they went back... coz they forgot to pay their bills... I can't help but laugh and throw a joke at them. That would be our first meeting.

That coincidence was followed by another conversations and so on.

One word to describe the girl... Mysterious. When I say mysterious, she really is! And maybe that is the reason why I crave to know her more. Makulit ako at nakahanap siya ng katapat niya. :)

I want to know her more, I want to see her, and I want to kill time with her.

coz... I am happy... and that's what matters.

Halloween Break!

2010-11-01T13:53:00.005+08:00

We had an event last October 29 to celebrate the Halloween at the office. To make this even more fun and everyone engaged, GPW (Great Place to Work) organized a competition between each team. The competition is for the following:

Best in Horror costume
Best Team in halloween theme
Best Loot Bag

I was on training attending presentation dynamics for two days including Oct 29 so I had my team prepare something for the event. We didn't really prepared that much and worry not about the competition. We just wanted to participate and not left out from the event. The girls from my team wear witch hats while the boys are either on scary clown make-up or wearing horror masks. This is my team:

For loot bag, we prepared a casket (holding by one of my associates). This casket is full of candies for trick or treat! :) Of course, you need to open it first before getting goodies, good luck! Haha!

We didn't won anything in the competition but participating is one great experience for us.

We are CAT/R&R Adjustments team.

We are One Team. One Goal.

and...

We Breathe... Performance!

Happy Halloween!

Uno, Dos, Tres, SINGKO

2010-10-31T03:14:00.003+08:00

People's favorite number back in college days is 1 while the least is 5. Simply because 1 or uno stands for a perfect grade and 5 or singko means you failed the subject. But you know what, I don't believe in these numbers nor in grades. Yes, I DON'T BELIEVE IN GRADES.

courtesy of google.com

Our parents were the ones who pressured us that everytime we present them our classcard, they expect high grades that falls either on 1, 1.5, 2, 2.25 and so on. But giving them tres, kwatro or singko will surely followed by endless sermon. Why? Because parents believe that these grades reflects how you fair in your subject... how much you have learned from your university... how good or excellent you are in your comprehension. But I beg to disagree. These numbers do not reflect who am I as a student.

Passing an exam full of objective questions such as identification, enumeration or multiple choice reflects only how good a student in memorization, technical terms that we will barely even use once we stepped out of the university. Plus, mixed it with an ingredients of cheating. I, myself is guilty of this. Who, in their entire stay in school, didn't cheat even once?

I am not defensive. I didn't get a failed mark back in my 4 year of stay in University of the Philippines Los Banos. I survived without repeating any subjects. But I didn't graduated with honors. And I didn't aspire one when I was a student.

Why don't I believe in grades? Because it simply doesn't show how great a student is. Grades does not show traits that we should really learn from school. These are things that we should learn more than what the academics can offer. Have you heard of a student getting a grade of 1 because of being proactive? What about a grade of 1.25 for being a team player?... for being disciplined? punctual? None. But for me those were the vital learnings that we should carry after graduation.

I salute those students who stayed more than 5 years on their alma matter, even those who stayed for almost 10 years. Because they learn something not even those who graduated in time might have learned. First is COURAGE. Courage to face the truth that they need to stay longer in their university to finish their studies while they saw their batchmates marching every March of every year. Second is BELIEVING IN THEMSELVES. Believing that they can finish what they have started in the university.

School, for me, is just a medium of learning and its not the one who judges how great you are as a person or as a student. Yes, grades are their to set standard but leveraging your own learning with what is in your classcard is wrong. Remember that learning cannot only be seen inside the classroom, much more you can learn when you look outside the four corners of your classroom.

Review: My Sassy Girl

2010-10-26T14:21:00.007+08:00

My Sassy Girl is my all time favorite Korean film. This is the only movie I watched twice in just one sitting. There is something on this movie that made this really exceptional. (Let's not talk about the remake of hollywood 'coz it really pisses me off! :)

Simple and funny movie plus a very pretty girl made this movie a truly one of a kind. I wonder if there really are Sassy girls out there just like "the girl" on this movie. For this movie, I would like to share only one... the letter of "the sassy girl" to Gyun-woo. On this letter, revelations kicks in.

This is the letter they buried under the time capsule. The letter speak of what the girl truly feels and the ultimate confessions that explains why she acted like that

This is the letter written by "the girl" to Gyun-woo: (Warning: DO NOT READ!! If you plan to watch the movie. This letter will spoil everything!)

Gyeon-woo! How are you? I was so happy while being with you. I'm not sure if you knew, but the person I loved passed away. The day when I first met you was the day he died a year ago. Actually, I tried to look for him in you. I know it was wrong. I'm sorry. I also met him on the subway like you. I was really sick at that time. He did everything I wanted, like you did to me. Under this tree, we planned our future together. But he suddenly passed away. While I was dating you, I met his mother often. She wanted to introduce a nice man to me, but I couldn't. The day I first met you, I came under this tree, and I prayed to him. To let me free. When I met you, this occurred to me. That maybe... he introduced you to me. But the more I met you, he seemed to grow jealous of you in me. The more I liked you, I felt guilty inside. While the two of us are apart, I want to forget him alone.

This would be one of the best part of the movie. Sadness comes in after an hour of laughter throughout the movie.

And this ten rules would be the best ten rules ever written! Kilig moments kicks in! (Thanks to Poldo for sharing! :)

The 10 Rules:

1. Don't ask her to be feminine

2. Don't let her drink over three glasses

3. Drink coffee instead of Coke/Juice

4. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't

5. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class

6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash

7. Be prepared to go to prison sometimes

8. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly

9. If her feet hurt, exchange shoes with her

10. She likes to write. Encourage her

source:http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0293715/quotes

For those who missed this movie, it's not too late. You can buy this movie in either original DVD copy or pirated! :) Satisfy your curiosity!

TRIVIA:

The sassy girl played by Jun Ji Hyun was unnamed
This is based on a true story. :)

Inbox

2010-10-24T07:27:00.002+08:00

It's been a busy texting mode eversince we had the chance to meet each other and get to know each other well too. Didn't noticed that you already reached...

888 text messages

saved on my cellphone inbox. .

and it's still counting. :)

Hayskul Layp

2010-10-21T13:56:00.002+08:00

Advertisement: Naisip ko lang magpost ng ganitong topic dahil sa sobrang haggard at toxic ngaun sa trabaho ko. Nakakapagod tlga at talaga namang naubos ang energy ko ngaun. Mag SL kaya ako bukas? joke. Kaya isip ako ng isip ng masasayang nangyari sa buhay ko. At naisip ko, ano bang parte ng buhay ko ang pinakapetiks at pinakasimple pero pinakamasaya din... hayskul layf.

Sana balik hayskul na lang ako. Napakasimple ng buhay. Mag-aaral ka lang, hingi baon, puro laro, puro crush! :). Ang saya ng buhay, walang kapressure-pressure 'di tulad ng pagtatrabaho. Lahat ng kalokohan ay una kong natutunan nung sumampa ako ng hayskul, second year hayskul to be specific. Nung first year hayskul kasi matino pa ko hanggang mapasama ako sa barkadang abnormal (pero proud ako sa barkada na 'to na hanggang ngaun ay makakasama pa rin kami).

Sa hayskul ako natutong mag cutting class. Rewarding din 'to eh lalo na pag first time mo ginawa.. todo kaba.. sa titser at sa parents. May mga over d bakod moments pa kami nun. O di kaya naman after lunch eh hindi na bumabalik sa skul.

Sa hayskul ko din naranasan na mapatayo sa class dahil top 1 ka... sa Noisy! O maging cleaners buong linggo dahil sa hindi nakagawa ng assignment, na galit na galit sa mga katropa dahil hindi man lang nagpakopya! haha!

Syempre anjan din naman ung mga party like aquaintance party, christmas party, halloween party at kung ano2 pang party. Pag love song na tumutugtog ay nakupo.. agawan na sa mga girls. Minsan nagkakahiyaan pa ung may mga may crush.. ipagtutulakan pa ng mga kaibigan. Puro pakipot! haha!

Syempre nakakamiss din ang flag ceremony tuwing lunes. At pag di ka umabot on time, nakasarado na ang malaking gate. After ng flag ceremony ay pila-pila lahat ng late at may sermon kay principal. Anjan din ung favorite mong lugar sa eskwelahan.. ang guidance. Allergic ata lahat ng student jan. Pag kasi nasa guidance ka, isa lang dahilan.. nagpasaway ka na nman. Haha! Isang beses lang ako naguidance.. hehe!

Naku sa hayskul ko din natutunan ang vices like inom, sugal, video karera, adding, pustahan at gangsta-gangstahan. At ang pinakamalupit sa lahat... sa hayskul ako natutong manood ng porno. Haha! Tingin ko naman halos lahat jan nagsimula. Mga siraulo kasi ung barkada ko, mga bata pa lang kung anu-ano na alam. Tapos di ka naman makatanggi kasi pag umayaw ka, tutuksuhin kang bading... syempre ikaw ayaw mo nun kaya pamacho effect ka. Haha!

Nakakatuwa naman talaga ang haskul layf... ang daming turning points sa buhay teenager. Di maipagpapalit.

Experience: Reef Walk

2010-10-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

Going back to Boracay... My bestfriends and I had the chance to experience what they call "Helmet Diving" or popularly known as the "Reef Walk." Using a 30 kilo helmet (yes, i am not joking, its a 30... thirty... trenta... tatlumpu) that will be put on top of your head covering your entire head & neck. But don't worry as explained and experienced, the 30 kilo helmet will loose weight when under the sea. The 30 kilos will become a whopping 2 Kilos only! Amazing! Hehe!

Before we tried the helmet diving, we were still half-hearted. The mere fact that it's really scary below and plus the devil's advocate of loosing oxygen supply under. But since its a once in a lifetime experience in Bora, tapang-tapangan kami.

Once you are under the sea and walking (literally), it was really a wow! You'll get to see fishes surrounding you. And of course, this can't be complete without these things - picture taking and video!

Here's one of the pictures I wanted to share with you. We were playing "habulang gahasa." Guess who's the loser! :)

And of course I can't end this post without sharing the rate. We were 5 and we got this for P400/head. We were in Boracay last September of this year (off-peak).

Puro Landi

2010-10-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

Sadya nga namang naparaming malanding tao sa mundo. Mapababae, mapalalaki. Ito na daw ang "in" ngaun. Kaya nga pati sa social networking tulad ng facebook eh sumikat ang status na "It's complicated" na minsan nauuwi sa "In a relationship" o "In a relationship with ___" kung proud ka. Minsan naman bumabalik sa "single." Naisip ko lang, magsuggest kaya ako sa facebook team ng isa pang status, "Single and complicated," in short puro landi lang ginagawa.

Masama bang lumandi? Eh pano kung ikaw na ang nilalandi, papalandi ka ba o magpapakasuplado ka? hehe!

Eto na nga ata ang bagong trend ng "New Generation" at minsan pinaglaan ni Rizal ng mga katagang "Nasa Kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan." Ano pa? hindi ba't uso na rin ang baby muna bago kasal? Na kung salitang kalye lang eh ang tawag natin jan eh "disgrasya" o di nakapagingat o "natyambahan." Araykupo!

Maswerte din naman ung iba na pinapanagutan ng lalaki ang sarap na pinagsaluhan nila na sunod naman ay hirap sa maagang pagaasawa, lalo na ang maagang parenthood. Masakit isipin na pababa ng pababa ang age bracket ng mga taong nagiging magulang na... isama mo pa ang pataas ding trend ng "single parents." Hindi bat narevise na din ang batas patungkol sa pagpapangalan sa anak ng mga single parents? Maaari ng isunod sa apelyido ng babae ang anak na hindi na pinagutan ng abnormal na lalaki.

Eto, eto na ang salamin ng kabataan ngaun. Ikaw makikiuso ka ba?

Ayeeee! :)

2010-10-14T06:02:00.001+08:00

Kung iyong mamarapatin

Ringgin ang puso kong isa lang ang hiling

Iyong ipadama sa akin ang lambing

Sure ako, sa tuwa ako'y mapapatumbling! :)

Tinamaan ang puso kong talaga namang

Iyong iyo, binihag mo pa!

Nariyan at nakalimbag, pangalan mo ata

Ewan ko ba anong taglay mong hiwaga?

Alam ko na kung bakit ba ganyan

Nahihilo at nalilito na naman

Oras ay lumilipas at hindi namamalayan

Relo ko'y tumitigil pag ika'y kakwentuhan

Ay ewan! san ba ito patungo?

Buhayin mo sana ang natutulog kong mundo

Eh kung ikaw na lang kaya ang mundo ko?

Nanaisin mo bang umikot ang buhay ko sayo?

Bow.

Pigil-pigil

2010-10-12T04:41:00.001+08:00

Babala: PG18

Naranasan mo na bang sumakay sa elevator?

Naranasan mo na bang sumakay sa elevator at may nakasabay ka na chick?

Naranasan mo ba bang sumakay sa elevator, makasabay ang isang chick at mawalan ng power supply?...

Pwes ako hindi pa. Hehe!

Pero ninais ko na ding mangyari sakin yan. Para bang sa mga pelikula ko lang napapanood yan. Napakaswerte ko siguro na kahit na matrap ka sa loob ng elevator eh chicks naman ang kasama mo.. malay mo may mangyari! Haha! Magkadevelopaaannn.. eto.

Pero naisip mo na ba na ang pinakamakasalanang parte ng tao ay ang pagiisip? Oo. Isang salita para maniwala ka... Pantasya.

Sino ba namang kalalakihan jan ang hindi nagpantasya kung kanino... at derechuhin na natin.. malaswang pantasya! Haha! O db db? umagree ka! lahat naman ata nagdaan sa ganyan.. May crush ka pero may pinapantasya ka din...

"Madalas kayong magtagpo sa iyong isip sa tuwing nagiisa ka't nalulumbay o di kaya naman ay wala kang magawa.. brownout at madilim ang paligid. Madalas mo din ciang kamustahin bago ka maligo. Sinisilip mo ang mapula niang labi at hinahawakan sa iyong isip ang bundok ng pagnanasa... Hindi ka pa nakuntento at pilit ding pinasok ang kagubatan na halos ikaligaw mo na... Ikawala ng iyong ulirat... feel na feel mo at halos ayaw mo na matapos sapagkat sa muka niay bakas ang kaligayahan na animo'y gustong-gusto din niya. Hayan na, malapit... ang climax ng inyong pagkikita.. hanggang sa muli aking pantasya."

Kung bitay lang ang katapat ng maduming pagiisip ay malamang konti na lang ang populasyon sa mundo. Kung nababasa lang natin ang isip ng bawat isa malamang ay isa din ako sa kahiya-hiyang haharap sa'yo. Ayoko magmalinis at gusto kong magpakatotoo. Galing na ko jan at di ko din masabi kung tapos na ko sa ganyang istilo ng pagiisip.

Sadya nga namang makasalanan ang tao..

Sa isip, sa salita, ngunit wag naman sana sa gawa! :D

License to Kill

2010-10-09T05:20:00.000+08:00

Marahil ay narinig mo na ang malupit na kalokohang tanong na ito:

Kung bibigyan ka ng lisensiya para pumatay, sino ang papatayin mo?

Bibigyan kita ng option to write whoever you want to KILL. Just write their name on the space provided. Sila ung mga halos sumpain mo na.. Balikan mo ang buhay estudyante mo, buhay empleyado o buhay ordinaryong mamamayan.

Candidate #1:___________

Candidate #2:___________

Candidate #3:___________

Tapos pakisagot to:

Would you kill someone to save a life?

Would you kill someone just to prove you're right?

What do you think? Would you?..

Mizundaztood

2010-10-07T05:14:00.001+08:00

People always argue with different things. Be it academic, politics, showbiz, economics, relationships or any topic under the sun. But have you think why we did so? I know for years that you lived your life in this cruel world of us, you encountered people you have conflicts with. There's your sister, your brother, your parents, your friends, your girlfriend/boyfriend, ex-gf/bf's, your teacher, the mean girls, the mean boys?:), a stranger, etc. Soon, they'll become your enemies, which I hope not.

I believe that the root of people's continuous conflicts and arguments is due to misunderstanding. If people learns to communicate and empathize, there would be no fights and misunderstanding. I know that each of us have their own set of thinking and views in life... but its not about who wins and who concedes, it's about learning to accept the fact that you cannot persuade everybody. Learn to respect and I am sure, respect will be offered back to you.

Think about it, why do relationships never last? Isn't because of miscommunications? If they just sit for awhile and talk about their problems emphatically, will they broke up? I guess the answer would be not. Think about breakthroughs, email and text messaging increases the chance of misunderstanding and misinterpretations. With just an incorrect choose of words, it creates a perception, which in turn becomes a conclusions. It really happens.

I know that misunderstanding is already part of human life cycle and something that we cannot avoid. But it would be best if we try to understand the people we have conflicts with... think where they are coming and why do they think that way. Do not persuade them, instead understand them.

Do want to live an entire life without peace of mind?

I don't want to.

Am I really?

2010-10-06T03:54:00.000+08:00

A big "sigh.." to start this post!

No, you are wrong! It is a sigh not of disappointment or frustration but of happy thoughts.. that I wanted to share to anyone who's willing to devote a couple of their time reading this nonsense work of mine. :)

How can you know if you are inspired? It's a pretty simple question that you may think anyone can answer including myself. I would assume it really is coz I know all the answer that will come out of your mouth sincerely came from your heart... plus a big smiling face! Haha!

I have once wondered why suddenly I wanted to come to work on time, do my daily task without complaining (which we usually do.. hehe!) and thinks positive all the time despite the hassle things surrounding me. I searched for the answer and this word pop out in my head just like an invisible bubble - INSPIRED.

I think, therefore I am.

She may have the bitter smile among them but why do I see it as the sweetest... I wonder. I think I have a crush on you. Don't get me wrong, at my age, crushes still exist. Don't argue with me.. haha!

It is your...

...shiny long black hair that I keep staring with.

...eyes that I always dream to look at me.

...hands and fingers that I wish to get lock with mine.

...smile that I adore with.

...text messages that I kept on my inbox.

...emails that I always wait crashing on my mailbox.

...get-up that was so fashionably in.

...moody attitude that keeps me going crazy. lols.

I know this is not my normal self. So am I really inspired?

"God damn stop asking that, you idiot!" ~my evil conscience >:)

30 Seconds to Mars

2010-09-30T05:19:00.001+08:00

I just recently discovered this band "30 seconds to Mars." I was actually on the mall looking for a new headset/earphone to replace my IPod earphone since the right piece is no longer working. While strolling and looking for a store that sells good quality earphones, I passed by MAC store that sells, of course, IPod series. I tested and listened to one vacant free-to-listen ipod (but i listened not because I am interested with the Ipod since I already have my own IPod touch but to test the quality of headset they are using, which on that time is a Bose headset). But oooppss, that god damn headset cost P8000!! What the.. Before that, the song playing on the Ipod was a song from the band 30 seconds to Mars, "The Kill." I enjoyed the song and memorized the name of the band. The song was catchy and easily get my taste of music since I am into rock genre. When I got home, I hurriedly search the internet and downloaded that song. After sometime, I have discovered some of their popular singles and after a week, downloaded their 2 albums!

30 seconds to Mars have 3 albums based on my research.. "30 Seconds to Mars" (2002), "Beauiful Lie (2005) and recently "This is War" (2009). I have the 2 latter albums. Oh yes, I just discovered this band but they were already creating music way back 10 years ago. Their album Beautiful Lie was even at platinum sales. The band also won the MTV Music Awards for the video "The Kill." Why didn't i know them 5 years ago? hehe! :)

The band is composed of 4 members namely: Jared Leto (vocals), Shannon Leto (Drums), Tomo Millicevic (Lead Guitar) and Tim Kelleher (Basist). The band was formed in 1998.

With the help of youtube, I was surprised also that one of their song under the "This is War" album was used as an official soundtrack (OST) of the movie "Legends of the Guardians: Owls of the Ga hoole." The title of the song is "Kings and Queens." Superb!! Their latest single to date is "Closer to the Edge."

Review: The Alchemist

2010-09-29T05:57:00.000+08:00

I would assume that you are lucky enough to enroll on humanities subject and been able to register on a subject were you mostly read books/novels and do either a reaction paper or review of that novel. However, most of college students don't feel reading a whole novel for the rest of the semester mainly because its sort of boring, I guess...

But you'll be MORE lucky enough if one of the novels that your professor require you to read was a novel entitled "The Alchemist" written by Paulo Coelho (i just hope you read it.. hehe!). This would probably the best ever written novel by Paulo Coehlo. I just love how the phasing of the story goes and with about less than 200 pages only, the story was smoothly plotted.

The story revolves on the main cast, Santiago, and his journey on searching for the "treasure." Did he really find the treasure that he is looking for or was it just a legend? The answer is on the book! So better grab one now! :)

Highly recommended for people who is searching for something that can make them complete. :)

Experience: Parasailing

2010-09-28T05:24:00.002+08:00

Parasailing is one of the attracting "To Do's" in Boracay. And for me, this would be the best activity so far. You will definitely enjoy your 15-minute ride with this big balloon, just like the feeling on a parachute! You will see how vast the sea once you saw this 100 feet above sea level. Not only that, you will definitely enjoy the cool breeze too. Me and my friend had the chance to experience this when we were in Boracay. We have it setup so when we rent for a ride, its around sunset time. And damn, everything was so perfect when you are up above! Not to mention a perfect background too! I hope I can share more pictures but unfortunately, we still unable to upload everything. Although the activity was too costly, we got it for P1,100/head, I can say that its really worth the price! Here are some of the pictures of my bestfriends enjoying the parasailing experience! :)

Review: Lost Symbol

2010-09-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

This would be one of the best novel I have read in mystery and suspense genre. What can I expect from the author of Da Vinci Code and Angels and Demons? Nothing but pages of full of excitement and great revelations! Dan Brown, I would say, is one of the best author we have right now. Of course to name a few like James Patterson and Anne Rule, he was exceptionally talented as them. So what's with "Lost Symbol" that makes it one of my favorite novel?

The best thing that I love about how Dan Brown wrote this novels is the feeling of wanting to finish the story in just one seating! But, I wasn't able to do that. Haha! It took me 5 days to finish this novel but the wanting to never stop reading is one of the feeling that I really like. It became a drug that I love to abuse myself with 'coz it got me addicted in reading the pages and I always search for any free time that I may have, be it at the office or in a ride on my way to office or home... on a bus! :)

I would definitely recommend this novel to all Dan Brown fanatics out there or to those who prefers mysterious things, suspense and actions! Plus the surprising revelations! I just love it!

What is then the "Lost Symbol"? It's the symbol that can create the greatest change in the history of mankind... but I will not tell you what is that symbol... go and know it yourself. :)

If I have 3 thumbs, i will give this my three thumbs up!

TOP 20 - Anime Series I truly missed

2010-09-22T04:04:00.004+08:00

Before ako magHIATUS ulit dahil sa nalalapit na "Client Visit" na naman sa opis, post muna ko ng TOP 20 anime series na talaga namang namiss ko ng todo. Gusto ko ulit panoorin to!! Craving! Buti my live stream ang Naruto.. :D

Eto na sila...

Naruto Shippuuden - endless friendship
Bleach - shaman.
Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X) - there's room for change
Death Note - playing god
Full Metal Alchemist - principle of equivalent trade
Hunter X Hunter - journey to find a father
Prince of Tennis - tennis tricks!
Hajime no Ippo - passion with boxing.
Gundam Wing - Hero and Relena!
One Piece - Pirate King!
Yuyu-Hakusho (Ghost Fighter) - ray gun!
Fushigi Yuugi - PG 18! hahaha :D
Slam Dunk - Gori!! :))
Gravitation - 11 episodes of superb MUSIC!
Flame of Recca - I will be your ninja and you will be my princess
Now and Then, Here and There - first ever anime i've cried with.
Vision of Escaflowne - where will your vision take you?
Tri-gun - Vash the stampede!
Lupin the III - full of comedy
Doraemon - Soneyo!

Ciao!

Vow

2010-09-17T05:42:00.000+08:00

How long do i have to wait to see you again?

Can’t believe that you were no longer the person i used to know back then

I never imagined you seeing me as “I cry” in front of you

And me always pretending to be strong and okay

Will my time still come? Time that i have been waiting for

The day that i can touch you and kiss you again

Embrace you like there is no tomorrow

Watch you grow old lying around my arms

“I love you”

Three words that my heart been shouting and will be shouting forever.

I will love you for the rest of my life

This is my vow

Equilibrium

2010-09-16T06:37:00.002+08:00

Una kong nakilala ang yin-yang na simbolo sa larong "Mortal Kombat." Seryoso! Hindi ko naman paki kung ano ibig sabihin niyan dati.. basta ang alam ko astig ang itsura nia.. Malaninja ang dating. Tsaka ko na lang nalaman na ang yin-yang pala ay simbolo ng good and bad, angels and evil, goodness and darkness, o kung ano pang maisip niyo. Nung maintindihan ko, na ito nga ay kumakatawan sa dalawang aspeto, naisip ko din na maaring lahat ng bagay ay may kaukulang katumbas o kabaligtaran (opposite). Halimbawa na lang ang mga sumusunod:

Lalaki | Babae
Puti | Itim
Panget | Maganda
Itim | Puti
East Coast | West Coast
Matter | Antimatter

At marami pang iba...Eport naman ata kung ilista ko pa lahat. Naisip ko lang na lahat ng bagay may kabaligtaran para maging balanse. That concept keeps everything balance (inenglish ko lang). What will happen if we destroy the balance, the proportion? Ewan ko.. Yoko na magisip. Bahala na kayo. :D

Gusto ko lang ishare ung concept na balance.

(sori sa post ko, walang magawa) :DD chillax mode lang.

Nanalo nga pala ako!

2010-09-15T05:55:00.001+08:00

Kakagising ko lang at bumungad kagad kasin ang mamang nakauniporme ng LBC.. May padala daw para sa akin galing sa isang taong nagngangalang NoBenta. Haha! Oo nga pala, nanalo nga pla ako sa pakontes niya about sa trivia sa mga kaganapan sa ating paligid noong dekada 90.

Masalimuot ang pagsagot sa mga katanungan ni NoBenta at talaga namang kinareer ko makasali lang sa kanyang kontes.. At charan! after isang buwan e pinalad akong mapili ng ramdom picker na ginamit ni NoBenta.. at presto may instant prize na ako. Maraming salamat parekoy! Dahil jan, ito na ang mga pics na napanalunan ko.. Di ko kilala ung bands na ito pero alam ko mahusay sila.. tama NoBenta?

Blogenroll \m/

Dreams

2010-09-14T07:24:00.003+08:00

Why do people need to sleep?

Why do people need to dream?

It’s an abyss where people meet fantasies

instead of realities.

Just a thought.

FEAR

2010-09-11T20:20:00.004+08:00

I am browsing thru several pages of a magazine when I come across a brand name ~~"No Fear."~~ But this is not to promote their products or whatsoever. :) I get focused on the word FEAR and thought how and why we feel afraid sometimes. Is this feeling a prerequisite of something? Is this feeling created for something we people need to realize? These are few questions I will try to answer.

Rapid heartbeats, too much sweating...

On my opinion, fear lives on the concept of not knowing something AND also when we know too much of a thing. We often feel fear when we less know a thing that we need to do or worse not even knowing at all. Having no idea of what will happen next creates fear.

Think about death. Most of us fear death and I am one of it. The simple reason why is because I do not know what will happen to me after life. Who knows? To mitigate this fear, society created beliefs and norms which will help people learn what is death. In turn, accept death as a form and part of man's life cycle. Some believe in reincarnation, some believe in fruitful life after death, some believe that we will either go to hell or heaven depending on how He will weigh the life that you have on earth, and such. But despite this, man still fear death.

Experience lessen fear. When we are afraid of something and challenge ourselves to face our fears, we are on the learning process. And probably after learning, we lessen the fear that we previously felt. Riding on Anchors Away at Enchanted Kingdom was one of the things that I fear when i first step on that place. But after the experience, fear changed to enjoyment.

Experience increases fear. Sometimes when we experienced something, that also increases our fear on that thing. This is because you now know what happens when you do it.

At the end, we must understand fear and use this to move forward. Some people enjoy fear and the feeling of overcoming this. I wish I do the same. Haha!

Boracay: Day 0

2010-09-10T07:41:00.004+08:00

"Last call for passenger Garra-Lena E. Aguila..."

(Bespren ko ung pangalan ng nasa taas)
Before pa ang napakasayang bakasyon ko at ng aking mga highschool barkada, aba'y sandamakmak na adventure pa ang aming kinaharap. Sari-saring emosyon na talaga namang nagpatawa, nagpadrama at higit sa lahat eh nagpakaba samin.

MUNTIK NA KAMING MAIWAN NG EROPLANO!

Haha! Pero bakit nga ba umiral na naman ang katangahan namin at muntik- muntik pang maglaho ang pinapangarap naming paglangoy sa isla ng Boracay?

Rewind tayo ng konti.. :)

Filipino time is on time! lols.. hindi ata talaga to maipipilit satin.. dakilang late kasi talaga tayo madalas.. sa lakaran, sa meeting. Alas sais ang kitaan sa jollibee dito sa may parte ng Laguna. Alas-9 kasi ang flight namin papuntang Kalibo island. Ako pinakamalapit sa meeting place kaya malamang ako mauuna.. Pero kung tutuusin sakto lang ako dumating sa lugar na yun. Alas-7 na kami nakaalis mula sa kitaan at sumakay ng jip patungong sucat. Wala namang naging problema at mabilis ang aming byahe. Pagdating sa Sucat ay sakay naman kami ng Taxi papuntang Gate 3 ng terminal ng eroplano. PAL airlines kasi ang ticket na pinabook ko.

Perstaym naming 5 na magtravel papuntang Bora at perstaym din sasakay ng eroplano (bukod sa isa kong kaibigan na nakaexperience ng sumakay sa airplane (wow sosyalin))... Alas-8 na ng makarating kami sa Terminal Gate 3, ang kaso...

Hindi pala dito ang terminal ng PAL papuntang Kalibo! Dun daw sa terminal 2! Ang masaklap, isang oras ang byahe papunta pa lang dun. Lahat kami kabado na... Dito pa lang e tumatakbo na kami at naghahanap ng shuttle na papunta daw sa terminal 2.. kaso ang bagal ng pila kaya nagdecide na kami na magtaxi.. Waaahhhh!!!!

Sa loob ng taxi, tahimik na ang lahat.. meron nagpapatawa pero halatang para kalmahin lang ang sarili. Nakupo! Naman! Inabot pa kami ng stoplight. Hintay ng konti.. sabay Green na! Ang kaso, ang mamang nakagreen ay ayaw pang magpa-Go.. Ayos! Para san pa't may stoplight manong? Panalo talaga si manong at halos sumpain namin at pinagplanuhan na ipatira sa hired killer (suri naman dala lang ng emosyon)...

Sa wakas, nasa terminal 2 na kami, 5 minutes before 9am! Pinauna na namin ang isa naming kaibigan para asikasuhin na ang aming mga tiket at para iinform na din sila na wag papaalisin ang eroplano dahil may 5 pasaway na pasaherong eengot engot.. hahaha! Btw, siya ung nalate kanina kaya eport kung eport talaga!! :D

Dali-dali kami sa kilos.. Hala, sige takbo... putek perstaym sasakay ng eroplano ganito pa nangyari! nakakatawang nakakaloka talaga.. Pati pagtanggal ko ng sapatos para sa paginspection eh dali-dali dahil baka maiwan ng eroplano. Panalo talaga sa experience!

Minsan masaya ding maging tanga, lalo na pag di ka nagiisa! Pero ang natutunan ko, maging engot ka na kahit saan wag lang sa terminal ng eroplano... kasi muka ka talagang tanga. As in! haha! Hep-hep, hooray!!

Eto na lang patunay na umabot naman kami. Hehe! :D

Infinity

2010-09-03T23:24:00.004+08:00

"It is an unendless ___________."

(I give my readers the freedom to supply any words you can think about and fits on the blank space provided.)

We first saw the symbol of infinity when we were on high school, probably during the second year. And our teacher thought us that infinity stands for anything that is boundless. In terms of numbers, it's something that multiplies with no ending (which i think somehow related to exponentials. gotta review my math 101 :D).

As I grow older (but still looks young), I learned that people also relates infinity to something other than science or mathematics. We often see and hear the words like endless, never ending and walang hanggan... endless love, hanggang sa dulo ng walang hanggan, and so on. But are there really such things as infinite that are not pertaining to numbers and science? A ~~simple~~ question that I always ponder about. Do you believe that there are such things as endless or limitless?

Even life has ending... love has an ending... sorrow has an ending... a story has an ending.

Is it only faith that makes people believe that there really are such things as endless? People will argue with me that life has no ending, that when we die, we have another life after death. But, who knows if there really is? I guess no one can proove that. The only living proof that we know life after death is through our own religion. But does this all boils down to faith only? I still believe in the saying "To see is to believe" or better "To feel and experience it is to believe." Don't get me wrong, I am no aetheist. I also believe in God as the creator of mankind. I just sometimes challenge people's beliefs.

As of today, I still can't think of anything that doesn't last. Anything that has no boundaries, limitless.

Now, go back to my opening sentence and recheck the words you chose to fill the sentence out. Is that really true? I challenge you to complete the sentence, again. :)

Si-AR-Yu-ES-eTS

2010-09-03T07:48:00.003+08:00

Smile... Did she know that with just a single smile of her using her attractive red lips, you loose yourself and makes your world spinning round?

A day is not just an ordinary day when you know that she is just "there" even though you both seldom interact at all, not even a consistent Hi's or hello's. But with a sudden unexpected meeting of your eye sights and a simple friendly smile is worth thousands of words for you and not even a 24-hour of conversation could match to that. What about how you crave to stare at her long black hair, her bangs, her face, her lips and her fingernails? and when she accidentally looks at you, you look away. Haha! That's so obvious!:D

You had the chance to talk to her but you easily run out of words... damn. Why this time? Oh come on, talk! Say something... keep the conversation flowing.. "Hello, how's everything?". Finally! Jokes came in. You now feel comfortable and she is too. Everyday will not be a day without you talking to each other.

Perfect and...

Lovely. :)

LATE > never

2010-08-31T04:25:00.007+08:00

This is a very popular saying passed through generations. Simple but very meaningful. Mostly applicable sa lahat ng bagay. What if iapply ko ang concept ng love since ito naman ang tema ko sa buwan ng Agosto? whatchathink?

Nangyari na ba sayo na may nagawa kang maling bagay na gustong gusto mong ayusin pero parang tingin mo ay huli na ang lahat para sayo? Parang wala ka ng magagawa at natuldukan na ang lahat? Isang pakiramdam na pilit mong sinasaksak sa utak mo ngunit ayaw tanggapin ng puso mo. Sabi kasi ng puso mo - Hindi pa tapos ang lahat. Hangga’t humihinga ka at tama ang nararamdaman mo, may lugar pa para kumilos ka. Sabi nga never surrender ’til its over. Pero nadefine ba nila kung kelan mo masasabing over na? Hindi ba't ikaw lang din makakapagsabi kung kelan nga ba tapos na ang lahat. So kung sayo, walang katapusan, edi walang katapusan din ang pakikipaglaban mo sa feelings mo. Gudlak.. hehe!

Iba-iba ang ugali ng tao, may idealistic at merong emotional. Matapang daw ang taong emotional kasi mas madalas nilang pairalin ang puso at nakabase lahat ng decision sa kung ano ang nararamdaman. Ngunit if you think about it may downside din - kadalasan tanga! Oo, kasi wala siyang pakialam sa kung ano na magiging tingin sa kanya basta mapakita at maexpress lang niya ung nararamdaman nia. Kung idealistic ka naman, mas madalas sarado ang utak mo at nakabase ang decision mo sa mga praktikal na bagay. Bato sila sa emotions. Tanong - Sino ba mas nagiging masaya sa dalawa? ewan ko. Depende siguro sa perspective un nung tao.

Para sakin, walang masama kung mahuli ka, ang point pinaramdam mo pa din ung puso mo sa taong mahal mo. Yun nga lang, wag ka magexpect ng malaki at the end. Kasi ung pagiging late mo ay consequence na. Cosequence na ng bagay na ginawa mo at malamang naman ay pinagsisihan mo. Siguro mas maganda kung gawin mo na lang un for self-fulfillment. Oo, mas maganda kung happy ending pero kaya nga naisip ng tao ang tragic ending kasi merong mga kwento na hindi nagiging maganda sa huli. Ang mahalaga ginawa mo ang lahat para sa kanya. At the end, walang pagsisisi sayo.

I would say na fighting for your feelings is not a bad thing. Kudos! since you have the courage to face it. But on the other side, think also of the person you are fighting your feelings with. Is that person fighting for you too? Does that person appreciate what you are doing? Or s/he is already annoyed with you. People fall in love blindly, agree or not but its true... and loving too much can really kill. Loving too much is selfishness. think about it.

Balance - we need to balance everything. Weigh things. Hindi pwedeng puro puso, hindi rin pwedeng puro utak.

A poem

2010-08-28T22:03:00.001+08:00

I can still remember

How fate had brought us together

Back in the place where we both find each other

Clueless of how we begin to fall for each other

I can still remember

How fate had brought us apart

What happened to the love that once shared and impart

Now I have no choice but to accept our depart

The years that we've counted

And all the happiness in hearts have planted

Is now part of the memories

Someday, I know, deserves to be reminisce

Adore

2010-08-27T05:53:00.004+08:00

Simple yet very strong word. On my years of living, I only hear this word a couple of times. But why do we seldom here this word? Instead, we often here and use words like Crush, Like or even Love. Isn't adore synonymous to these words? With this curiosity, I looked at the dictionary and search for the meaning of this word. The book says...

Adore: (1) To worship as a God (2) To regard with deep, often rupturous love (3) To like very much.

Ooopss.. I guess this word is not as simple as I think... Very strong word and if you think about it, I would assume this is something greater than love. Wait... greater or worse? Why did I asked? 'Coz this word can make a person loose his/her logic of knowing what is right or wrong.. You are totally blind. And you only wish of one thing.. be with him/her and you'll do anything just to make her happy or to please him/her.

Is this related to obsession? It can be... But I guess what differentiate Adore is we used this not only for love with opposite gender but also for people whom we look up to.

Have you felt sometime in your life that you have adored someone? I do. And I am not ashamed of it. Is there anything to be ashamed of in the first place? I am just a human being whom has the right to fall in love and right to adore someone.

You'll never noticed that you are already there unless you started breaking your own rules. Believe me, I've been there.

Destiny.

2010-08-24T07:25:00.001+08:00

We always hear the word destiny or destined. How do people define destiny would be somewhat similar to how most of the people think of it. Two people destined with each other means they will be together at the end "no matter what they do and how people do to separate them." I literally wanted to quote that as it actually defines what destiny is as what other people think of it. But is there really a destiny or is this just another kids fantasy stories?

Sorry to contradict or to disappoint everyone but I and how I view life in general really don't believe that there is destiny. We have the brains to think and common sense to decide on what we really want out of something or out of life. I do not let destiny or fate control me. I hold my own life and I am the only one who can dictate the kind of life that I wanted. This is the only freedom that all of us are blessed to have with.

If you want something to happen, you need to move and make that happen. Things will never come and happen if you wait for destiny. You never get something just by praying or looking at it, you must try hard to get it. You need to exert effort!

I am writing this not to persuade you. This is just my opinion and my belief.

Love Hurts

2010-08-23T12:22:00.003+08:00

Kapag ready ka na daw mainlove ibig sabihin ready ka na din masaktan. Totoo. I agree. Kasi naniniwala ako na hindi ka masasaktan kung hindi totoo ung pagmamahal na nararamdaman mo. Masarap magmahal at palagay ko ito na ang pinakamagandang creation ni God para sa tao. Pero sa emotion na to kasama din ang pinakamasakit - ~~ang masaktan~~. Bakit nga ba kelangan pang masaktan kung nagmamahal ka? Bakit kung sino pa ung taong nagmamahal ng totoo, siya pa ung madalas masaktan? Anlabo db? Pero un ung harsh truth.

Magmahal o masaktan? Kahit magmahal lang piliin mo, pinili mo din ang masaktan. Wala namang taong gustong masaktan kaya nga never sumasagi sa utak ng tao na masasaktan siya not until maramdaman nia na un. Hindi ready kasi hindi naman pinlano talaga. At sino bang nagpaplano nito? Aus ka kung ineexpect mo na dadating ka dito. Pero bakit nga ba kelagan pa talagang masaktan?

Pagsubok. Kadalasan kung nasaktan ka at humingi ka ng advice sa mga kaibigan mo, ito ang sasabihin sayo… "Pagsubok lang yan! Kaya mo yan!" Siguro nga pagsubok ito kung gano ka katatag sa isang problema. Sukatan din kung gano katatag ang isang relasyon. Naisip ko lang, san ka nga ba dadalhin ng pakiramdam mo? At hanggang kelan mo to kakayanin? Pano kung sumuko ka na? Sino ba tlga ang natatalo sa huli? ikaw ba?

Wag nating kalimutan na after ng kalungkutan, andun pa din ang saya. Hanapin mo lang, makikita mo at marerealize mo din ang lahat ng mga nangyayari sa buhay mo. Pag nakabangon ka na, learn from your experience and be a better person. Sabi ng kaibigan ko kaya daw nangyayari sa buhay ng tao ito kasi kadalasan ang pagmamahal natin s tao ay higit na sa pagmamahal natin sa Diyos. Nakakalimot na tayo na dapat mas higit pa rin ang pagmamahal natin sa Kanya.

Kung nasaktan ka na dahil sa pag-ibig, hindi ka nagiisa. Alam kong kaya mo yan. Kaya natin ‘to!

Borrowed Life

2010-08-22T14:42:00.000+08:00

Life is short...

God gave us life

Life is borrowed only and needs to give back

Wherever you are

I know you are happier now

'Coz you are now in the arms of the angels...

in the arms of our creator

Thank you for sharing memories

Have a peace journey to heaven...

This post is dedicated to "Tatay" my bestfriend's father.

Condolence my friend.

nearing death

2010-08-20T08:09:00.005+08:00

I feel the pain growing in my chest as I lay on the rough ground. My heart keeps pounding very hard and it’s getting harder and harder. I feel my whole body… the pain slowly eats me, I wanted to scream but voice was not coming out of my mouth or maybe I wasn’t hearing anything at all. Murmurs… all I hear are murmurs from my surrounding. I feel like an alien who cannot understand their language, it only echoes in my ear. Suddenly my body is getting numb and the pain is slowly fading… should I be happy that the pain is gone?

My sight is getting blurry and I can no longer recognize the objects in front of my face… I see only movements but not as definite as I view things previously. A ray of light suddenly appears in front of me. It’s very bright that can blind anyone who directly sees it. Pictures are moving fast In front of my naked eye… I realize that they are no ordinary pictures, they are my memories. They move like a speed of light… so fast yet it slows down to a part of my memory seeing my family…

We are very happy. Smile was always in the lips of my wife… then we hug each other… kiss each other. A few seconds I saw her waving and tears starts to drop in my eyes. What did I do? Why am I here lying and deeply breathing? Why? I wonder.

The lights are now slowly fading and darkness is slowly conquering my vision. Darkness covers half of my sight just like how a moon blinds a sun. God forgive me, I have become a sinner. It’s over… it’s finally over.

I was lying on the ground… alone.

Everything stops then suddenly there’s peace.

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Just get curious on the concept of dying and death itself. I am also curious what dying people think and feel when they are on that part of their life. Is this really something we should fear? The post above describes how a criminal dies and purely based on my imagination. Again, just my imagination. :D

Love and Truth

2010-08-17T06:24:00.011+08:00

I’m thinking about you so much…time doesn’t stop for me
My empty heart still can’t find your feelings
I can never draw the same picture twice
But my emotions are just repeating over and over again

No matter how lonely I get, I have a feeling we’ll meet again
I don’t need a reason; I know I can’t turn back
With the way it is now
I’ll just become a part of your memory, right?
My emotions shone like the depths of tears…

Please give me wings and believe that, just as with this poem
I swear
I’ve decided to accept all the past
I hum the “love song”…I want to touch your smiling face
Even though I know that there’s someone you’re gazing at

My “love song” never ends - I’ve already met you

…It never will end…

EMOtional

2010-08-16T06:23:00.002+08:00

Marahil narinig mo na ang salitang EMO. Ung in na in na salita ngaun kung saan madalas ay natatawa ka pag naririnig mo. Bakit? Kasi nirerelate mo cia sa mga taong masyadong madamdamin ang buhay. Ung mga taong kaya daw magpakamatay dahil sa sobrang kalungkutan. Well, sila nga ba tlga un?

Naniniwala ako na ang pagiging EMO ay dinadaanan lahat ng tao. Oo, maniwala ka! Mahirap sigurong tanggapin o malamang nagrereact ka na ngaun kasi feeling mo hindi ka naging EMO kahit minsan. Lahat ng tao may problema. Abnormal ka nga daw kung wala kang poblema. Pero kung EMO ka, madalas na ang problema mo ay problema sa puso, tama? Sino bang hindi nagkaproblema sa love o pagibig? Ikaw? Owss! kahit balibaligtarin natin ang mundo, alam ko nagkaproblema ka na sa pagibig! Hahaha!

Masama ba maging EMO? Para sakin hindi as long as nilalabas mo lang ang mga nararamdaman mo (expressive ata ang term dun). Masarap sa pakiramdam pag nilalabas ang mga hinanakit sa buhay. Minsan, isang sigaw lang katapat okay na. Hehe! So kelan ba nagiging masama ang pagiging EMO? un ay kung nilamon na ng puso ang utak ng isang tao. Kung saan nawawalan na ng logic ang tao. Dyan na ung naglalaslas na at tinatapos na ang buhay. Ano bang mapapala mo kung mamatay ka? Naisip mo ba ung taong iiwan mo? Ung mga taong nagmamahal sayo? o diba anlabo. Magisip-isip ka.

Siguro nagtataka ka kung bakit ako nagsusulat ng ganito? Oo, tama ka! I’ve been there. Feels like the end of the world. Parang ayaw mo na at gusto mo na tumigil ang mundo mo. You are totally lost and don’t know where you are going to. Di mo alam kung san ka magsisimula ulit. Ang gulo-gulo ng buhay mo at hindi ka makapagfocus sa mg bagay na dapat mong ginagawa. Pero maniwala ka, isang araw magigising ka na lang na marerealize mo na kelangan mo bumangon para sa sarili mo.

Minsan kelangan mong maging malungkot pero hindi ibig sabihin nun ay kelangan mong namnamin ng husto. Ung tama lang. Tamang emote, after nun, mas maraming realization dapat. Dun makikita mo, ano ba tlga ang dapat mong gawin.

Ikaw naging EMO ka na din. Aminin mo man o hindi. Sure ako!

Love for her (still...)

2010-08-14T21:16:00.002+08:00

Still You.

People have different perception of what happiness and success in life is.
You may heard the simplest explanation from a simple person or the most
complex reason to be happy to the most complicated person you have ever met.
But these reasons all root to the love that we wanted to feel and embrace
while we are still alive in this planet. People are born selfish and I agree
to that. We focus more on achieving our own goals and happiness in life rather
than thinking of "others." I once believe that I can give up mine and offer it to
someone else and thought that someday, I know, I would just pick-up my happiness
from the arms of someone whom I am yet to meet.
Time passed.

It's tested! I am not as patient as what others are. I always say that "True
love waits" and that I must not pressure myself looking for it. I would say
now that those were mere LIES. Instead. I would say "True love waits for those
who fight for it." I have made the worst decision in my life - when I PRETEND
that I let you go.

Am I really stupid to let this happen to me? Now I am here reminiscing the
memories that we were still together, the happy and sad memories that we once
shared. I would have not thought about it if I am not feeling it until now.
It's still you, the girl that I want to be with. Nothing has changed. All the
unintended words that came out of my mouth are coming back and slapping right
in front of my face... and I don't have the GUTS to avoid it.

For the past year I didn't feel the peace of mind that I dream of. I tried, I
tried hard and harder. I always feel that a day is a chasing day. I am always
looking and searching for the obsession that could answer all my questions.
Being patient is a must and that is what I did. I am not sure if this is
already the end of the line and my impatience is now eating me alive. Where is
it? Did I found it? Would you believe me that yes I found it? I found it but I
cannot have it. Or I once have it but can no longer own it. I was really
surprise that after all these months, the happiness I once defined was still
the definition I have come up with.

Happiness is YOU.

I may be too late to tell you this and you may ignore this but I wouldn't let
another stupid and freak brain of mine to have this passed by. If there is one
thing I've learned when we were apart, that would be to be TRUE to myself and
that chance comes only once. And I'd better grab it.

Sampal

2010-08-10T04:14:00.001+08:00

Anupa't dumampi din ang iyong malalapad na palad sa napakalambot niyang pisngi...

Dati rati'y madalas mo pang pisilin ang matataba niyang pisngi. At may mga panahon pang wala kang inatupag kundi halikan ang mapupula niang pisngi kung saan litaw na litaw pa ang dalawa niang dimples sa tuwing siya ay ngingiti. Anong nangyari at nadungisan na ang pisngi ng iyong dalawang maruruming kamay? Bakit halos mamula na ang kanyang balat hindi dahil sa hiya o kilig kundi dahil sa pag sambot ng kanyang muka sa iyong galit na galit na palad.

Bitbit ng iyong kamay ang napakabigat na damdamin na sa wari ko'y hindi mo maisalin sa salita kaya marapa't na lamang na isang SAMPAL na lang magpaliwanag ng lahat. Sapat na ito upang mailabas mo ang sakit na iyong dinadala. Ang sampal na nabubuo lamang dahil sa pag-ibig na sobra at labis na nasaktan.
"Hayup ka!" ito ang madalas na kasabay ng lumilipad na sampal ngunit hindi mo ito binanggit. Bakit? Dahil sa pag-ibig?

Saan nga ba matatapos ang lahat? Sa luha ba? na pagkatapos ng isang sampal ay tatalikuran na ang lahat ng pinagsamahan.. o sa isang yakap na handang humingi ng tawad at magpatawad?

Minsan parang Tanga lang

2010-08-07T07:19:00.001+08:00

Halos malapit ng dumampi ang mapupulang niyang labi ng biglang may naaninag kang isang bagay na papalapit sa iyong mukha… lumilipad.

~~“Lutang ka na naman”~~ sigaw ng titser di maipinta ang pagmumuka. Sabay tawanan ng mga kaklase mo kasama na ang crush mong napadaan lang nung mga oras na yun. Napahiya ka na naman, at sa harap na naman niya. Hindi sinasadyang makuha mo ang atensyon niya at kayo’y nagkatitigan ng mga dalawang segundo habang siya’y natatawa. Sulit na kapalit ng bukol sa ulo, Kumpleto na din ang araw mo! Madalas ka pang makita ng mga barkada mong nagtatatakbo habang may hawak na walis tambo na para bang hinahabol ka ng kampon ng mga kadiliman at hinihintay na sagipin ng mga idolo mong “maskman.” Paparating lang pala ang crush mong si Angela… parehas pala kayong “cleaners” nung araw na yun.
Bukod dyan e nahuli ka pa minsan ng kaklase mong nagtatago sa halaman at nagnanakaw ng ~~“simoy”~~ kay Angela habang naglalaro ng chinese garter kasama ang kaklase niyang animo’y may pagkabinabae sa sobrang kembot. Tinulak ka at napasubsob sa harapan ni Angela. Natigilan ka, napatitig, nanigas at napipi! Sabay takbo na naman na parang tanga lang.

Sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos eh ganito lagi ang drama mo. Habang abala ang mga kaklase mo sa kakalaro ng sipa at jolen, ikaw naman ay walang inatupag kundi sumulyap ng sumulyap kay Angela. Hindi rin naman kita masisis dahil maganda si Angela. Bukod sa kulay asul niyang mga mata at nakakasilaw na kaputian ay nanjan din ang makapigil hininga niyang ngiti.

Lumipas ang mga araw, syempre walang inunlad ang diskarte mong patagong panliligaw sa kanya. Di mo namalayan na Marso na pala. Oo, malapit na ang bakasyon. Mga dalawang buwan din na hindi kayo magkikita. Hindi mo alam kung makakaya mo pa ba ang ganung katagal na hindi mo siya masisilayan.

Nakita mo si Angela sa huling pagkakataon bago matapos ang buwan na iyon. May kakaiba sa kanyang ganda kaya naman napatitig ka ng husto. Ang haba ng maitim niyang buhok lalo na’t nakasuot siya ng puting damit. Kitang kita mo kung pano kumilos ang kanyang kaliwang kamay habang inaaangat ang tali ng kanyang toga papuntang kaliwa. Lumingon siya at nakita ka. Sa sobrang kaba mo ay napatalikod at tumakbo ka.

Dahil sa katangahan mo ay nabangga mo ko, ang kaklase mo simula pa nung unang marka sa elementarya. Natigilan ako, napatitig, nanigas at napipi! Sabay takbo na parang tanga lang. :)

PAG-IBIG [hakbang]

2010-08-05T04:34:00.001+08:00

Sa bawat pahina ng buhay mayroon mga pangyayaring hindi mo inakalang tatatak ng lubos sa iyong pagkatao. Madalas ay ito ang nagiging sanhi ng iyong kasiyahan, pagkabigo, kalungkutan, pagkaaliw, pagkalubog at pagpaparaya. Isa itong bagay na nakakahilong ieksplika at lubos na pag-aralan. Marahil dahil sa hindi naman ito isang kaganapan sa buhay na parehas sa ibang tao. Magkakaiba ang pananaw, pakiramdam, pagtanggap at pagkasuya natin sa konseptong ito.

Malamang ay tanda mo pa nung nasa elementary ka ang unang beses mong naranasan ang kakaibang pakiramdam na ubod na nagpasaya sa iyo. Na sa tuwing dadaan ang “crush” mo at mapapatingin o titig sayo ay para ka bang nasa alapaap at sinusuray-suray ng mga ulap. Ito na marahil ang unang kilig at unang hakbang ng kamulatan mo sa konsepto ng puso.

Dumaan ang mga araw at naging abala ka sa buhay estudyante. Trip na trip mo pa ang mga usong kanta ng mga kabataan noon. Natatandaan mo ba ang mga linya sa kantang "Torpedo" na pinasikat ng eraserheads. Dito mo natutunan na kung gaano kagaan sa pakiramdam ang mapunta sa ikasiyam na alapaap ay siya ring hirap iparamdam sa kanya. Oo, minsan din akong naging ganyan. Naging utal, nagmukang tanga at napahiya sa harapan niya. Pero hindi naman dun nagtapos ang lahat, kasi mas tumimbang sayo ang ligayang nararamdaman at nabulalas mo din ang lahat. Eto na ang simula ng panibagong kabanata ng iyong buhay.

Napakaganda at napakagwapo mo sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos. Isa na yan sa epekto ng bugso ng iyong damdamin. May nagaalaga na sa iyo at may inaalagaan ka na din. Laging may ngiti sa iyong mga mata at labi animo'y kumikislap na parang mga bituin sa kalangitan. Inspirado ka sa mga bagay-bagay at laging positibo ang pananaw mo sa buhay. Malamang ay unang beses din to na gumawa ka ng "blogsite" para lang isigaw sa mundo kung gano ka kasaya. Lumipas ang mga araw, buwan at taon kasama ng mga koleksyon mong bulaklak, lobo, cake, greeting cards at singsing.

Sa pakikipagsapalaran sa masalimuot mong buhay, maraming nagbago. Ang bulaklak na itinago mo ay nabulok din. Ang lobo na dati'y napakalikot ay di na makaangat sa himpapawid. Ang greeting cards na dati'y punong-puno ng sulat ay nangupas na. Tanging naiwan sayo ay ang pares ng singsing na dati'y magkahiwalay na nakasuot sa inyong mga mumunting daliri. Masakit at halos gumuho na ang mundo mo. Umaayaw ka na sa buhay at nais na lamang ay salubungin na ang karit ni kamatayan. Asan na ang dating ngiti?... ang kumikislap na mata?... ang kagwapuhan at kagandahan?... ngaun ay para ka na lang tanga na nasa isang sulok at katumbas mo pa ang pulubi na kulang na lang ay laglagan ka ng barya.

Nagmakaawa ka, lumuhod sa harapan niya at nangangakong magbabago at hindi na mauulit ang lahat. “Magsimula muli tayo”… ngunit nalaman mo na lang na huli na ang lahat. Wala na ang siglang dati ninyong pinagdadamayan. Wala na ang mga saya at puro hinagpis at kalungkutan na lang ang natira. Tumigil ang mundo mo, walang direkson.

Para lamang yan bangin, pinakamasarap ay ang aktong tumalon ka at parang lumilipad na walang pakialam kung ano man ang kakabagsakan. Lumipas ang panahon at unti-unti kang bumawi sa pagkakasadlak. Malamang ay nabasa mo din ang mga payo ni Bob Ong at naisabuhay ang lahat. Handa ka ng salubungin muli ang buhay ng buong tapang, walang pagsisisi at puno ng pag-asa. Nasabi mo na lang... "Ngaun alam ko na, ganun pala ang PAG-IBIG"

Bitter si kuya

2010-08-02T04:03:00.001+08:00

"Masakit mawalan ng minamahal pagkatapos ng lahat ng oras ng pinagsamahan at ang sabay niyong pagbuo ng mga pangarap at plano sa buhay.... Ngunit hindi ba't mas masakit malaman na ipinagpalit ka sa PANGIT?!! Asan na ang taste mo ate??"

- tambay sa kanto

Alam kong move on ka na sa dati mong karelasyon, boypren man ito o girlpren. Ngunit aminin mo na minsan ay napapasilip ka pa rin sa fesbuk wall ng ex mo (aminin mo na, mamatay na nagsisinungaling!) sa kadahilanang curious ka sa anong klaseng buhay na ba meron siya after ng break-up niyo. Ninanais mo pa na makipagunahan sa kanya na makahanap kagad ng iba para lang maipakita na naka-move-on ka na (as if s/he cares?!). Magugulat ka na lang isang araw na punong puno ng puso ang paligid ng FB wall niya.. Love is in the air ika nga nila. Ouch! nasaktan ka dahil alam mo sa sarli mo na meron ka pa ding nararamdaman kahit konti... Pero mas naging usisero ka sa kung sino na ba ang karelasyon ng dati mong kasintahan!

Expectations. Syempre iniisip mo na kung may ipapalit man sayo e di hamak na mas gwapo at matalino sayo. Ung tipong basura ka pag dinikit ka sa present BF niya. Pero pano kung hindi ganun? Ang bumulaga sayo ay lingid sa inaasahan mo.. Ano to, pang-aasar? Ipapamuka sayo na he's better than you when in fact kung pagwapuhan lang eh lamang ka ng libong paligo. At kung patalinuhan lang din eh kaya mong sagutan ang Sudoku ng limang minuto lang! Ampucha! nakakairita!

Malamang eh natatawa ka dahil nangyayari naman talaga ang mga ganitong eksena. At kung pwede lang na hindi malaman ng barkada mo kung sino ang pinalit sayo eh gagawin mo para lang hindi ka mabasag sa lupit ng pang-aasar ng tropa mo. Pero maliit ang mundo at lalo pang pinaliit ng fesbuk. Tatambad lang naman sa news feeds na "(Ex mo) is in a relationship." At di pa nakuntento, dinugtungan pa ng "in a relationship with (insert name ng boypren)." Juskopo!!

Bitter ka ba kuya? Oo at hind. Hindi ako bitter dahil pinagpalit na ko, bitter ako dahil hindi tao ang pinalit sakin, hayup!! hayooopppp!!!! Mapanlait ka na kung sa mapanlait pero un talaga ang nakikita ng mata mo.. sabi nga nila, "to see is to believe." Bwahahaha!

Wag maxadong kadibdibin ang post na ito at paumanhin sa mga tinamaan (kung meron man).. Naisip ko lang magpost ng ganitong tema dahil sa isang kwentuhan na pinaghanguan ko ng salaysay na ito. In fairness may natutunan ako...

..... Minsan may point din na maging BITTER ka! Lalo na pag nasa lugar! Hahaha! :)) Peace man!! ^_^V

plert

2010-08-01T13:01:00.000+08:00

This just caught my attention. A friend of mine post this on her facebook wall. Interesting...

Ang kulit lang. Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan ARAYkupo!!!

Shetix

2010-08-01T01:04:00.001+08:00

Hala at ako'y umuwi na namang tipsy. Pero wag ka mag-alala ang post na ito ay hindi tungkol sa paglalasing ko. :))

Nasa opis pa ko ng may magtext sakin at nagyayaya na uminom.. Syempre friday mode na naman at weekend na, sabi ko "ok, sunod na lang ako kasi shift ko pa.." Fast forward ng konti...3am after shift, derecho ako dun sa paborito naming tambayan... mga 5-minute walk lang naman kaya hindi hassle. Inabutan ko dun ang sandamakmak na opismates ko.. Hi jan, Hello dun.. papatagayin ka pa.. "sabi ko teka lang, chill lang tayo" Hinahanap ko ung table ng frend kong nagyaya sakin.. ayun at anjan lang pala sila.

Siya lang kilala ko sa table na yun so pakilala muna mga kasama. Ung 2 ka-opis ko pla kaya kilala ako. Order ng isa pang bucket kasi dumating ako... Pansin ko lang lasing na ata ung nagyaya na tropa ko. Mejo maingay na eh at alam mo naman pag lasing na. May inaya pa pla siyang isa pang friend na wa-know ng lahat. Hmmm.. in other words, alien. haha! Btw, nakalimutan ko sabihin na babae ung nagyaya sakin.. (pero tropa lang ah, wag lagyan ng kulay)

Ang siste, may gusto pala sa kanya ung isang ka-opis namin na itatago ko na lamang sa pangalan na Mr. Torpe. By the name of it, kelangan ko pa ba iexplain? Pero hindi ko un alam, wala din akong ideya eh. Okei naman kasama ang mga mokong, kahit unang beses na makabonding sa inuman, swak pa din. Parang matagal ng kasama.

Kaso ang masama at awkward na nangyari ay ganito... ung tropa ko na nagyaya sakin ay may gusto naman sa isa pa iyang bisita. Kaya aun mejo riot pala at may tensyon na sa table (syempre ako wala pa ring alam, tanga ba ako? hehe!).

(isa pang fast forward, last na)

Uwian na, bayad ng bills (ouch sa bulsa) haha! Pero sulit naman. Nauna na silang umuwi bukod samin ni Mr. Torpe na nagyaya pa ng isang round. Syempre ako kahit mejo may tama na, hindi na din tumanggi. Yun pla eh maglalabas ng sama ng loob sakin si Kuya. hehe!

"Pare bwisit na bwisit ako kanina"

"Ha? Bakit?"

(tinuro niya ung pwesto ng babae na katabi ko)

Syempre mejo matalino naman ako (haha!) kaya nagets ko na. "eh bat hindi mo pinormahan kanina? wala ka pla eh" kinantyawan ko.. Pano naman daw siya makakaporma eh dumating na ung isa.. Nanggigigil daw siya sobra. pero pinipigilan nia. Ang husay mo, sabi ko.. Kasi kung ako yun, walk-out na ko.

Mahal mo na ba o infatuation lang?

Mahal ko na ata pre.

Ay mahirap yan..

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Minsan tlga may mga taong martyr pa din. Kung ako nasa lugar niya, papakita kong mahal ko ung tao. Consistency. Kelangan din yan. Parang napakasimple ng problema ni Mr. Torpe pero kung tutuusin mahirap din. Siguro dahil sa perspective ng isang tao. Siya kasi takot sa rejection. Takot sa risk. Parte na ng buhay yun.. at kelangan lang iaccept. There's no harm on trying at mas mahirap kung di ka man lang nagtry kahit isang beses.

Kung ikaw si Mr. Torpe, pano mo sosolusyunan ang problema mo?

La la la la la

2010-07-30T09:04:00.004+08:00

Ano ba ibig sabihin ng "lalalala"? Buti na lang at anjan si pareng google at yahoo para tulungan ako.. type type and then hit "search" o "hanapin".. hmmm.. Wala. wala akong makitang meaning ng salitang lalala bukod sa isa ata itong kanta o more particulary children's rhyme.

Ano bang meron at naisipan kong hanapin ang meaning ng salitang ito? Actually may naalala lang ako na isang tao na madalas ko marinig o magsalita ng lalala.. Ginagamit daw nia 'to pag wala na ciang masabi.. o pambara lang din minsan sa kausap. Therefore, para lang siyang variable na bahala ka ng mag-substitute ng anumang appropriate words na gusto mo. Pero syempre kung bubuo ka ng isang usapan at ito ang irereply sayo, malamang sa hindi eh alam mo na din ibig nia sabihin.. kung gayun, partially i could say that its something you don't want to say.. could be a taboo word?.. palagay ko lang naman.

Pero pwede din namang ang ibig sabihin ng "lalala" ay mahal kita as suggested by this song. Mukang nauna na silang maghanap ng meaning nito, walang makita so sila na nagbigay ng kahulugan.. husay! Well, wala naman talaga akong point of creating this post. Bigla lang sumagi sa isip ko 'to. Enjoy the song! :)

Swing Out Sisters - La La Means I Love You

Who wants change?

2010-07-28T11:00:00.002+08:00

The only thing that never change is the word CHANGE.

As we live our lives, everyday we feel change. From the simplest change of things around us... the weather, people we meet, urgent matters, sudden unexpected events and the like. But these were mere change that we seldom focus on. Some people may not even consider these as change but an instance and normal events occurring in our life. So when can we say that a change is a valid change and will really get our attention? I should say these are the ~~"major changes"~~ in our life... the changes that could deliberately affect your norms, your ideals, your habits, your life and your philosophy.. and sometimes even your beliefs. I also consider facing challenges as part of the change.

Getting out of the comfort zone. I simply put the definition of change as going out of your comfort zone. That is the reason why most of the people don't want change. But for me, change is something we can't prevent and we should learn to accept. One word that is connected with change is ~~RISK.~~ And this may also be the next reason why change is something we don't entertain.

If you are encountering significant changes in your life now, you may be in one of the four phases below. Learn where you are and be aware of what will happen next. You'll never know, you already overcome change.

Shock. When change occurs, our first reaction is shock. And we, most of the time, do not know how to react to this. Its the first phase of change.

Resistance. Normally we resist change. And this is the second phase of change. We always deny change and stick with the things that we normally do. Simply because we don't accept complexity of things and want everything to stay as it is.

Acceptance. After several attempts of resisting change, you will then undergo the phase of acceptance. You begin to accept change and live with it. Sometimes the reason why we dealt with this is we have no choice at all. We begin to adjust to change.

Discovery. During the phase of acceptance, you begin to learn and discover the brighter side of the change. You will see that the change you sometime resist is something that you really want to happen. You now appreciate change. Ü

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Change is something we need not to resist. We just need to look, observe, analyze and think what good things ~~"the change"~~ can bring. You'll be surprise that the major changes in your life will be the start of something huge. Two words to summarize everything...

EMBRACE CHANGE!

Dreams within dreams [Inception Review]

2010-07-26T16:00:00.008+08:00

"Your Mind is the scene of the Crime"

Would it be possible to plan something on someone's mind, use the person's subconscious mind and steal from that person without him knowing? The only possible way is by penetrating through a dream and live on it as if its the reality. This is the main concept of the movie INCEPTION.

(inception - I am not sure what the real meaning of this word but in the movie it was defined as planting something on the dream of a subject (dreamer) and take something from his dream information or secrets that may not be accessible in the real world.)

In a dream world, the beginning is where the scene is... This one took my attention...
"Do you still remember how you get here?" said Cobb (Leonardo DiCaprio) to her architect. "Uhmmm.. We were..??.. Are we dreaming?

In your dream you are the creator and objects were created based on your "Projections." And when other people tries to change your dream world, I am not sure if they called it "EXTRACTION", the more it triggers the subconscious mind of the one dreaming to start doing self defense. What's the sign? The dreamers projections reacts and looks at you (on the scene, it's the people from the dream).

(Projections - anything that was created by the subconscious mind to create your dreams, like people walking, busy street or cities).

Aside from the concept that really caught my attention, another big thing that surprise and excite me is the layers of dreams that Leonardo and his crew planned to do. An inception from a dreamer in the reality, then an inception from a dreamer in the dreamer's world, and so on. A dream within a dream within a dream AND WITHIN A DREAM, again. You'll see lots of sleeping.. hehe! Lolz.. And the only way to do is a perfect plan and perfect crew composed of an extractor (Leonardo himself), an Architect, A forger and a person expert in sedative products. But the real catch is when the person who is dreaming dies on his dream, the people who extracted and live on his dream will be stuck in "Limbo". But for how long?

(to avoid too much spoiler, just watch the movie and find out why they tried to do this)

5 minutes of reality equates to an hour of living in a dream. When the concept of dream within a dream applies and the pursuing the plan of Leonardo and his crew, worst case, they can be stuck in a Limbo world for 50 long years! And live that dream as their reality. OMG!

You'll see in the movie that Cobb always spins an object (I am not sure what the name of that thing is). What is the purpose of that? Leonardo's only way to determine if he is awake or sleeping. But why is he the only character doing this? Simple, he messed up and jumbled his reality with his dreams. This is his dilemma and an "OBSTRUCTION." Making his dream unstable. Leonardo has a side story on the movie but I would not dig deeper on that, it's for you to find out. :))

(Obstruction - anything that can make your dream world unstable)

But here's the twist... What if the person you tried to do the extraction and inception happens to be prepared and was trained to counteract possible dream extractions? Great adrenalin rush... find the answer on the movie itself. ^_^

It's such an amazing movie and instantly became one of my favorites. Aside from the concept, you'll really think and excercise your braincells in this movie. That really counts big time for me. Highly recommended for people who love very unusual stories. Two thumbs up for me. I'll rate this 10/10!! :)

Disclaimer:

This is my interpretation of the movie. Any misinterpretation I quoted please let me know so I can make necessary changes. Brainstorming is welcome.. :)

Boss Isang bucket pa nga!

2010-07-25T06:06:00.003+08:00

July 24, Sabado, ako ay lasing na naman.

Iba talaga ang epekto ng alak sa tao. Madalas nakakagawa tayo ng mga bagay na hindi na natin namamalayan. Sabi nila un daw ang tunay na kulay na ugali ng tao... kapag nakainom na. Kasi you tend to loose your defense and expose yourself to everyone. Anu-ano nga ba ang epekto ng alcohol sa ugali ng tao..

Meron jan madalas na mag-english (haha!). Nagiging instant cum laude!

Minsan nagwawala... tapos biglang iiyak (Baliw?)

Meron ding nagiging pasaway (alam mo na 'to)

At meron ding sobrang emotional na. (sober up!)

Tipsy. Madalas yan ang marinig natin sa mga kainuman natin.. "Ano tipsy na?" lalo na pag napapansin nilang nagiging maligalig ka na. Tsk tsk.. at malamang after ng inuman e topic of the town ka na din. Dahil sa mga pinaggagagawa mo..

Well, di ko naman sinulat 'to para magshare ng mga kalokohan ko. Haha! Asa naman.. ako author tapos ako paguusapan. Db? Basta ang natatandaan ko lang eh masaya talaga pag may inuman.. hindi dahil sa beer o pulutan, kundi dahil sa kasama mo... sa walang humpay na kwentuhan, tawanan at meron pang tuksuhan.

Lumalakas ang loob. Isa na siguro to sa maganda at masamang epekto ng alak sa tao. Oozing with self confidence na ang drama ni kuya o ate pag tinamaan na ng 7% alcohol na San Mig Light. May mga sikretong madalas mabunyag... at madalas sa love. May mga nagcoconfess sa mga crushes nila o sa dati na nilang mahal na may mahal ng iba (awww.. ang bagal kasi). Ang masakit lang, after mong magsalita ang irereply lang sayo... "joke ba yan? lasing ka na." Aray! Muka bang hindi genuine ang sinasabi mo pag lasing ka? hmmm..

Gusto ko lang din magpasalamat sa mga taong ito na kung wala sila eh malamang naghugas kami ng plato at inabot ng sipa ng bouncer ng bar. Para kay Raul, Tina at Joey.. Kampay! Sana maulit pa ang libreng nomo.

At syempre sa mga sponsor namin:

San Mig Light

Tanduay Ice (love this)

Gilbey's Premium Strength (GPS)

Red Horse (nakupo!)

Coors Light

Margarita

Sisig

Pancit

Tokwa

Kwago's Videoke

Solve! :)

Know-It-All Guy.. Duh!

2010-07-23T09:30:00.003+08:00

At some point in your life you will really meet a person who always pretends that he knows everything. Ok ok, let me correct myself... He may know a lot of things but that doesn't count that you know everything.

A Smartass... or a Smart Ass****!

I am not saying that being smart is stupidity. Of course, every person is smart in his own way. We either excel in English and "5.0" in Math OR an ultimate mathematician Newton wannabe and a noob on "spokening dollar". But there are people who wants to be both good in math and proficient in english. And the truth is, there really are these people. Bow to you guys!^_^

But how do I differentiate an intelligent person to a know-it-all person? I used to call those know-it-all guys smart people. But that was before not after they pissed me off. Yes. It's very annoying and what really bugs me is when they tried to question everything... I mean EVERYTHING! Simple things that they want to complicate. I don't know what's their point of doing that. Do they just want to give an impression that they are analytical? But the truth is sometimes their questions and points of views were off tangent!

I know I may sound biased on this post but I really can't find the sense of doing such things... where in the world can anyone tell me that what they are doing is something healthy to the people around him? Yes it may exercise your braincells for a couple of minute but you'll just noticed that you are already wasting your time trying to explain everything. Worse, wasting your braincells for stupidity of other people.

And to my observation, most of the know-it-all guy uses foul languages or should I say lacks the choices of appropriate words to use.

And they have only 1 rule. "I win, you lose... no matter what"

Can anyone shed me some light here? I'm sorry but I think I am totally losing my grip.

Up Up Down Down Left Right Left Right A B Select Start

2010-07-22T09:15:00.001+08:00

Pamilyar ba ang title sayo? :)

Yes! tama ka. Yan nga ang mga buttons na pinipindot para makakuha ka ng extra 27 lives sa larong "Contra" kumpara sa pagsisimula ng game na may 3 lives lang. Kung batang late 80's or 90's ka, malamang nakapaglaro ka na ng "Family Computer." Sikat na sikat to dati nung hindi pa lumalabas ang gameboy (black & white pa dat time). Eto ung gadget na gumagamit pa ng tapes na games. "Bala" ang tawag namin dito. Nilalagay ang Bala sa isang slot ng game machine. Parang bread toaster lang pag nag "eject" ka ng game tape.. tumatalsik! haha! kaya ang hirap maglaro nito ng patago sa parents, maingay kasi. Ang pinaka-nakakamiss jan eh ung paghipan mo sa bala kasi minsan pag sinalang mo, blurry ung game (parang garbage). Haha!

Naalala ko pa nung time ng kabataan ko. First honor ako nun sa klase at naging motivation ko talaga na manguna sa klase para lang makarequest ako sa parents ko na ibili ako ng napakasikat na technology na 'to. Madalas ko pang iyakan to dahil ayaw ako pagbigyan ng nanay ko na maglaro. Madalas kasi na pinagpapalit ko ang pagtulog sa tanghali sa paglalaro ng games. :))

Ilan lang sa mga sikat na games nito ang nabanggit ko nga na Contra, anjan din ang Mario Bros., Battle City, Twin Bee, Bomberman, at hanggang sa mauso ang 20 in 1, 100 in 1 at meron pang 10000 in 1. Nakakaloko kasi ung 1000 pla na games eh paulit-ulit lang.. Marketing nga naman, naabuso ang kawalang malay ng mga bata.

Simpleng graphics lang kumpara sa grapics ngaun ng mga games na makikita sa Sega, Playstation, PS2, PS3, PSP, X-Box, at Nintendo Wii. Kung baga oldies talaga ang dating. Pero wala pa ring tatalo sa unang experience, sa kinalakihan. Di ko sinasabing hindi ako naglalaro ng mga bagong technology ngaun, nais ko lamang iparating na ibang klaseng satisfaction pa rin ang naibigay sakin ng family computer kumpara sa mga bagong game gadgets ngaun.

May bali-balita pa nun na isang elementary student sa Japan lang daw ang gumagawa ng family computer.. hindi ko lang alam kung totoo un.

Words says it all

2010-07-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

Hoping.

Thinking. Praying.

Longing. Dreaming. Believing.

Clinging. Counting. Cherishing.

Craving. Wishing.

Waiting....

just a thought.2

2010-07-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

Who knows where LOVe will lead us?

It's a god damn big surprise. :)

S.T.O.P

2010-07-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

There are moments that you'll feel that you need to stop doing the things that makes you happy... even if it means giving up your routines, happiness and inspirations. Simply because its wrong. If from the start you know its beyond rules, you are also aware that there are corresponding consequences or worst punishments. Consequences that you ignore and just follow what makes you satisfied... forgetting that its not supposed to be. That awareness makes me think that I should halt doing these things.

Its tough but trying is not a harm. What would be the best way to help me do this? divert my attention maybe. Or make myself more busy.. beside the fact that I am already busy at work. :)

Control. Its all about mind setting. But how far can the mind hold the eager feelings of the heart? Let us see...

Patawad (Gloc 9 way)

2010-07-16T10:34:00.002+08:00

One of very touching and sincere lyrics I've heard in a rap song. This is an excerpt from the song "Kasalanan" sung by 6 cyclemind featuring Gloc-9.

Patawad ay isang salitang animoy isang parusa itoy

Sasambitin mo lang kung lahat ay huli na at di na

Maibabalik ang dating pinagsamahan parang putik sa

Mukha na pinahid ng pabalang.

Sa iyo lahat ay paharang dahil ayaw mong magparaya
Habang siyay bigay ng bigay at ipinauubaya lahat ng
Makakabuti kahit na pang huling butil ay iaabot sa iyo.

Parang ikay isang inutil na hindi nagiisip wala kang
Nararamdaman subukan mang pumikit wala kang
Natatandaan lagi mong inaalala ang para lamang sa yo
Walang iba kundi ikaw at kailanmay walang kayo

Mapalad ka kung hihingan mo ng tawad ay nagagalit
Ikay sasaktan at sumisigaw ng salitang pumupunit kaysa
Pilit mong kausapin ay di na sasagot akapin
Man ng mahigpit ay di mo na maabot (Patawad)

Tayoy nagtalot nagsigawan at halos magtulakan sa
Galit ko akoy lumayas at di ka binalikan
Nilimot ang lahat ng pangako at ang pagmamahal
Sumpaan natin sa isat isa di rin nagtagal

Ang gabi ay aking umaga umagay aking gabi
Akoy gumigising hindi ko kilala ang katabi
Paulit ulit na ganito ngunit ng aking makita larawan
Mo sa loob ng aking lumang pitaka ay nalaman ko

Hinanap ko ang tunay na sarili ko nakita ko nalaman ko
Ito ay nasa piling mo inipon ang lahat ng aking lakas
Ng loob ngunit bakit parang hindi rin maganda ang
Aking kutob.

Nilapitan ka at pilit na tinitigan sa mata
Akoy nagdarasal na sabihin mo saking pwede pa
Ikay hindi kumikibo at parang lumalayo tila pagibig
Mo sa kin tuluyan na natuyo

kuryente!!

2010-07-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

Hindi ko alam kung nagkamali na naman ba ang PAG-ASA sa projection kung san tatama ang bagyo.

Isa lang naman ako sa mga apektadong residente ng Laguna na inabot ng signal #2 na bagyo.

Walang Kuryente.

Ang hirap matulog pramis. Ang init kasi.

Talagang maaapreciate mo ung silbi ng kuryente sa buhay mo pag nawala. Masasabi mo na lang, sana magkakuryente na, kahit doblehin pa ng meralco singil sa kuryente. Hehehe!

Pero since nakakapagblog na ko, sa wakas may kuryente na.

Salamat.

inagaw ka sakin

2010-07-11T16:10:00.001+08:00

Kung nasan ka man sana masaya ka na sa bago mong kasama.

Matagal din ang pinagsamahan natin. Lagi kitang kasama sa lahat ng oras. Bawat minuto, bawat oras. Madalas pa nga tayong mapuyat ngunit ako'y masaya. Siguro nasayo na ang lahat.. saya, lungkot, takot, kalokohan. Kung ano-anong feelings na ang naibahagi mo sa akin.

Namimiss kita.

Ngunit wala na kong magawa. Tandang-tanda ko pa ang huli nating gabi na magkasama. Nakainom pa ko nun. Di ko namalayan na wala ka na pla. Iniwan mo na ko... biglaan ang lahat.

Nalaman ko na lang na inagaw ka pla sakin ng hindi ko namamalayan. Masakit dahil wala man lang akong nagawa para bumalik ka sakin. Naglaho na ang lahat.

Dumaan ang ilang araw. Dahil sa pangungulila...

Sorry pero nakahanap na ko ng kapalit mo. Masakit mang sabihin, ngunit mas maganda.

Kung nasan ka man, sana masaya ka din. Naisin ko man na hanapin ka, wala nang paraan. Sumuko na ko, kasi alam ko na imposible na din.

Napalitan man kita, hindi kita malilimutan sa tagal ng ating pinagsamahan. At kung sino man ang umagaw sayo.. isa lang ang masasabi ko.. P$^@*#) *!(!!!

Paalam na aking celphone.

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Babala: Ito ay isang fiction lamang o kathang isip. Chillax lang tayo. ^_^
Inaalay ko ito sa inyo na minsan ng inagawan ng celphone.

Would you believe me that they were born out of love?

2010-07-11T03:33:00.004+08:00

HaTreD

Jealousy
PaIN GUilt

Suffering

                 Sleepless nights
TEARS
        ReGRets
                             MaRTyrS

7 Habits of Highly Effective People

2010-07-08T12:21:00.001+08:00

This was one of the training I have attended past months ago and wanted this to share through my blog. I find this very interesting and at the same time inspiring. The very first time I knew about this, I started thinking "Am I like this?" This is the 7 Habits by Stephen Covey. Here are the 7 things we need to know to become a better person, should I say.

Habit 1 Be Proactive - this tackles how we react to certain things happening in our lives. Its better to be proactive rather than being reactive. In being proactive, you strike a balance between your influence and your norms and made decisions out of it. I would say that people that are proactive tends to lean more on critical thinking and analyzing his/her surroundings. This is the start and your foundation as a good person.

Habit 2 Begin with the End in Mind - not all people have definite goals that they pursue. The ability to write down your short-term and long term goal and track the progress of it is what the second habit is all about. You tend to focus on this goals [they called it big rocks] on your everyday activity and decisions because you do your things because of this goals.

Habit 3 Put First Things First - Its very important that you know what task is your priority and should be done first. All works are important but some task needs to be prioritize and the key is to identify those.

Habit 4 Think Win/Win - in dealing with decisions that involves other people, the best decision would be those that benefits you and the other party, that's why its Win/Win! Avoid making decisions that benefits only one party. It can be applied even in having relationships with your other half.

Habit 5 Seek First to Understand Then To Be Understood - before someone understands you, make effort to understand them first. In that way, you can speak emphatically.

Habit 6 Synergy - Two head is better than one. Setting peoples differences and coming up of something better than doing alone. You should learn to work with your peers.

Habit 7 Sharpening the Saw -Sometimes you need a time out and time for yourself. This is building more yourself and balancing these factors: physical, mental, social and spiritual. Its good to take a break sometimes.

To begin with, "You need to start with yourself." and build yourself by following the habits in chronological order.

Blogging: The Beginning

2010-07-07T12:20:00.003+08:00

(bago magsimula, benh --> iwasan ang taglish please!!! Umpisahan na ang malalalim na tagalog)

^_^ ang kulit lang ng titulo ng aking susunod na lathala kasi hindi naman ito ung unang beses na magsusulat ako sa blog (naku ano ba tagalog nito? palagay na lang sa comment). Nagkaron lang ako ng ideya (tagalog yan a) na magsulat dahil kay pareng "Renz"... naisip ko lang pano nga ba ko nagsimula sa blogging (tagalog?). Alam ko lahat tayo dito ay may rason kung bakit, bukod sa ung iba ay gustong kumita (adsense). Hehehe!

Pano nga ba ko nagsimula?...

Disyembre ng nakaraang taon ng magsimula ako magsulat at galugarin ang mundo ng blogging. Sa totoo lang wala akong pakialam sa (wala atang tagalog tong mga to, cencia na) "Friend List", "Following Ekek", "Adding Links", "Adsense", "Comments" at kung anu-ano pang ka-ekekan sa mundo ng blogsphere... Kasi ang tanging pakialam ko lang eh magsulat. Literal na ginawa kong tala-arawan (diary) ang blogging. Pero bat nga ba ko napadpad dito? Isa lang ang dahilan, kasi....

~~Ako'y nabigo sa pag-ibig. Nasaktan.~~

Nakakatawa pero totoo. Ginawa kong labasan ng malulungkot na pakiramdam ang una kong blog. Sa "i.ph" (ayaw ko i-link, haha!) ko unang binuhos ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko, mga tanong sa buhay na hindi masagot, mga pagsisisi, mga agam agam... sa kasalukuyang terminolohiya, EMO ang tema.

At dahil sa sobrang bugso ng damdamin, halos araw-araw ay may sinusulat ako, punong puno ang site na yun. At hanggang ngaun naman ay hindi ko pa rin masasabi na hindi na iyon ang rason ko sa patuloy na pagsusulat.. halata naman siguro na malulungkot pa din ang akda ko. hehe!

Hmmm.. so kung sa i.ph ako nagsimula, pano ko napapadpad sa blogspot?

Pinakilala sakin ni "Unni" ang blogspot. Pangalawa siya sa blogger na nagkomento sa aking sumisigaw na kahon (Shout box, duh!) makalipas ang apat na buwan ng pagsusulat.. halatang wala kong kaibigan sa i.ph.. hahahaha! Sa madaling sabi, close-closan ko na tong si Unni (feelingero).. haha!

Mula sa aking puso... Salamat sayo Unni!! At dahil jan, poste (post, hehehe) ako ng picture mo at blogsite mo.. ayan pinapakalat na kita (pinopromote).

Sa mga susunod na araw, buwan o taon, maaaring magbago na ang mga rason ko sa patuloy na pagsusulat. Pero magkaganun man, iba pa rin ang UNA.. hindi makakalimutan. ^_^

Ikaw pano ka nga ba nagsimula sa mundo ng malikot na pagiisip na blogsphere?

What if...

2010-07-07T11:29:00.000+08:00

~~What if~~ we were wrong about each other

What if you were really made for me

What if we were supposed to be together

Would that not mean anything

What if that was supposed to be my house

that you go home to everyday

How can you be sure that things are better

if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me

Still wanting me

Moving on is the hardest phase of being in love... because we cannot accept the fact that things have endings and we can no longer do about it but "let it be" and move on with our life. We keep thinking that there are still hopes and ways to bring back the old times. Then we also keep filling out the phrase What if?... But if you think about, keeping asking those questions to yourself will make everything worse only on your part especially when the one you are thinking those with had already chose another path in her life... and that journey is with someone else.

lyrics excerpt from: What if

singer: Babyface

Still Crazy After All These Years

2010-07-06T13:32:00.000+08:00

I am crazy, people are crazy sometimes. And being crazy at times is fun and enjoying but not to the point that you are hurting anyone. The craziness I am pertaining to are moments or events in your life that are worth sharing. Those were memories that you will no longer forget and still on your mind until the present. On the other side, there are also people's craziness that makes us sad in an instance or in a moment. These are memories in our lives that we cannot forget and continue hurting us when in fact we should be forgetting them and buried them once and for all. But something inside of you keeps reminiscing these, for the most times that you don't want to... That's why I called this "crazy."

I just keep wondering why there are events in my life that I can't help to forget... but i want to forget! Its so damn unfair. What's worst is its the same pain you will feel back the time you first felt it. Can this be a sign that I haven't move at all? A sign that I didn't grow. Why are there moments in my life that were so painful back then but laughing at it now? Can't be all sad memories be like that?

I want to move on... and I know life goes on. Time won't stop for me and I know I must go with the flow of life. I may not realize people and things surrounding me already change except me. I don't want to be on that, i mean who wants to?

They say the book of life has many pages and chapters. Once one chapter ended, you will not close the book, instead move to the next chapter and continue filling out the pages.

Easier said than done.

Heart of Mine

2010-07-04T15:09:00.000+08:00

One day, you may
find true love that will last forever and ever
'till then you'll spend
a lifetime wishing one together

You never thought ~~she'd say goodbye~~

And you will never understand the reasons why

This is the hardest part of people's live. We mistakenly thought a person to be by your side for the rest of your life when in fact she'll just leave you in the end. People told me that its not bad to love someone and give your 100% but sometimes leaving at least 1% for yourself is better. True Love... how can we know if true love is already there?.. I guess no one can answer that but yourself and your heart. Heartbreaks are part of man's life. What's only unfair is we cannot dictate what our heart should feel especially in times of healing. Why does it hurts so much when you keep reminiscing your happy moments?... why does it hurt so much seeing her with someone else? Why...

lyrics excerpt from: Heart of Mine

Singer: Janno Gibbs

people uniquely define love

2010-07-03T11:22:00.001+08:00

Some ~~people~~ live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people's destiny passes by

As human being, God gave us the knowledge and the freedom to choose. Options that we choose based on our decisions and feelings. God created us unique with each other which makes everyone decides to certain things differently. Like how we perceive love, we define love differently. People love other people the way they understand what love is. Some are not afraid of whatever risks there is of loving someone.. Be it "not love back" or worst rejection. Some are afraid to express their feelings. This, on the other hand, turns to regret after awhile because they missed the chances to be happy... and let this just pass by...

lyrics excerpt from: I'll Be Over You

singer: Toto

Why do I love you

2010-07-03T10:34:00.003+08:00

~~Why do I love you~~
Why did you hurt my heart then away
Why did you take my love away
Why do I keep on waiting
And hoping yet I know
That you could never be mine again...

There are cases in our life that we didn't mind waiting in vain for the rest of our life... for person that we truly love... waiting and hoping that someday she'll realize your worth and miss the moments you were together. But sometimes we often realize that somethings are not really meant to happen at all. Or should I say we deny the fact that things you wanted to happen will no longer exist... It's amazing how life changes in just a snap of a finger. You think she still needs you but its the either way around... she wants you out of her life... but despite this, you still keep hanging on. :'c

lyrics excerpt from: Why Do I Love You

singer: Metafour

Without you

2010-07-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breathe
And my life ended

Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine

~~without you.~~

People regret a lot of things in their life... mistakes that we usually just realize when people that we mostly love already left our life. Their importance and role in your life become more distinct once they are already gone. This is one of human's weakness... we failed to foresee what will happen next because we usually just take a snapshot of what is currently happening in our life. Then, one day you'll just wake up that you are all alone... you'll realize that there's something missing in your life... you feel incomplete... without his/her.

lyrics excerpt from: Without You

Singer: Charlie Wilson

Music. Journey. Paramore. to misery business.

2010-06-29T10:56:00.001+08:00

Music has been part of my life and I think everyone's life too. Yes. I am a certified addict when it comes to music. I dunno... I think same with how other people connect with this language, I feel a part of me was complete once I started listening to songs. You are full of emotions and people of different nations and race connect to a universal language called music.

Love songs, R&B, Jazz, Rock, Pop, Alternative... name it. Music of different genre but with the same purpose... to express oneself.

There had been a lot of new bands coming in and out of the music industry. Most are really talented and have unique ways of expressing themselves. Be it mellow, acapella, loud or noise. I was one of the million people all over the world who appreciated the music of this band called Paramore.

They were introduced to me by my sister 2 years ago with their new single that time called Misery Business. The band and especially the lead vocal "Hayley Williams" really caught my attention. From there, I begun to listen and start discovering some of their unreleased songs, even demo songs that were not on their album. I discovered then another song that really made me think... I am "now" a certified fan of this group... the song "My Heart." My curiosity brought me to other beautiful songs like crush crush crush, never let this go, breathe, stuck on you, conspiracy, adore, that's what you get, emergency, and many more.

I would have not appreciated their songs without Hayley as their lead vocals. She just rocks everyone with her very strong voice considering her age that time (17 y/o) and very unique looks (red hair). I got hooked with their group, particularly Hayley, and started reading and surfing the net just to gather facts about them... latest news, what's going on, and the like. And then my research brought me to Hayley's blog... I was shocked with her latest post for her fans... When they released their 2nd album "Riot", they were really on a make or break situation. If people/fans didn't buy their album, that would be their last. The second album was released 2 years after they recorded their first album "All we know is falling".

I said "NO!" Thankfully, Misery Business went high on charts. And the album "Riot" ended with platinum based on the number of sales. They were popular back then but I guess the biggest break they got and what made them very popular now is when they created the original soundtrack (OST) of the movie Twighlight... the song is entitled "Decode"... People then recognize Hayley's band and fans came in by storm. This is then high time for them to release another album... "The Final Riot". This album is the live concert of songs coming from both All we know is Falling and Riot album. They were certified music icon now.

September of 2009, they were able to release their latest album "Brand New Eyes" which was welcome by the fans very warmly. It was also their highest charted album to date. A success indeed.

I am writing this post not because I am a certified fan of the group but i just thought that their music and journey is worth writing... and reading.

I was inspired in every song they composed and how Hayley soulfully sing each every song they created.

Fame was something that never last and I know someday popularity will fade but the music they created will last forever.

Long Kiss Goodbye

2010-06-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

"How long before we see each other again?"
What made me think that you were saying it with a nice expression?
I pretend that there's nothing bothering me
I'll listen 'till morning as you make excuses
Because I want us to be connected

I don't even want to see your face along the river anymore
No development will come from this, my cell phone dances
If It's goodbye mail, I want to forget about it
"Hold me tight" but "I want to disappear to somewhere"
Any time that you're talking too much you don't seem to notice

I let you see that "I cry" a little while pretending to be strong
How well did those tears work on you?

Even though "I want to be loved" in my own way
It fills me, but I can't see you
I just have the feeling that I'll never see you again...
I want to tell you that, but I can't find the right words
Maybe it's okay if I lie, but I can't even say "Don't go away"

When our hands come apart
Will you forget someday?
About me?

Not Feeling Well

2010-06-28T09:12:00.000+08:00

napakamalas ko nga naman...
dumaan lang ang weekend ko ng walang nagagawa. Tambay sa bahay.

ang malas tlga pag may sakit ka... wala kang magawang bagay kundi humilata, magpahinga, uminom ng gamot at tumahol sa kakaubo. napakasakit pa ng ulo ko dahil sa sipon.

namiss ko tuloy ang pagbablog. pati pagbati sa mga kaibigan ko dito sa blogsphere.. :)

well, looking forward na maging okei na din ako despite na inuubo pa din.

see you soon my blog site.. for now sign off muna ako.

An advice from a friend

2010-06-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

There are no guarantees, that's what makes it exciting and scary at thesame time. Think.... poker =D the higher the stakes, the bigger therush... ergo, the bigger the disappointment din... but if you hit thejackpot, sarap naman ng feeling. That's what you should aim for.

Life (and love) is a gamble. You gotta play it with eyes closed and fingers crossed... and an open heart. Love like you've never been hurt.... because there is no other way of loving anyway... but with your whole heart.

- Ms Gina